Hey

It’s eleven thirty pm, and I have my coffee.

I managed to control my anxiety, by not getting angry and, just not thinking.  I w having problems verifying, my payment method for Meta.

I have fitted my new phone case.  It’s rly grippy w dry fingers w is super.  That means it w be perfect.

Fireworks just kicked off, tho I can’t see them.

It’s kinda slowing me, running my ad, bc it w take them one to two days to get back to me.

I’m like chomping so bad, to get this done.  Tbh I must not tell myself that this is gonna work.  That’s the absolute kiss of death when it comes to this.

It gave me the chance to learn a new software, w is always good.  I’ve learnt so many new platforms now.  I feel I’m getting pretty computer literate.

Hostinger gives me like one hundo websites, and I have used like about thirty already.  I have to say that Hostinger is absolutely fab.  That drag and drop is super dope.

The only thing that I have a problem w, is that I can’t put my clip on the header.  It won’t allow video that I’ve downloaded.

I wonder how a gif works.  Does it load an image straight away, and then load the rest.  I need to k whether the image w load first, for my landing page, when people have like a bad connection.

I thought that everyone has 5G nowadays.  This isn’t true tho, bc when I w in the village, they didn’t even have 5G there.

Also, at the supermarket, every time I need to load Nectar, I have to connect to the WiFi, bc the cell signal has gotten so bad for some reason.

I applied for another job today.  It involved sales.

I have seen for sales, that the secret to sales is to never sell; w is good, bc I don’t like being pushy.  I w just have to offer all the relevant products.  I’m totally cool w that, and it w be a new skill.  It’s funny, bc I am already in Sales, bc of my Marketing.

They offered an interview to someone who had a disability, so I put my emotionally unstable personality disorder down.

This w be good, bc I always flunk the Situational Assessment, I think.  There’s no way of knowing bc there is never a score, tho I never get the job.

I have learned that it is just how job applications have developed.  Maybe I should write a covering letter; that might get me in the door, as it is a skill that I have had for decades, and it hasn’t changed much.  If it had changed, then I w just need a template and learn the changes.

Tbh, I find them a bit grovely, so I might not.  I suppose I c just write something authentic, something real.  That might appeal to the right manager.

Dear Sir

Please may I be considered for the position of..

I have had schizophrenia for over ten years.  I am now better and am looking for work

Miss K

I suppose the best thing to do, is not be a soul sucking vampire.  Talking of vampires, I love how narcissists are seen as vampires now.  Love that in music.

I’m so scared of getting a job.  I hope everything works out alright.

Maybe I should go to an agency, so that they find me like something w just a few hours.  Tbh, I dek if they can do that, bc my agency has not gotten back to me in over a month.  I suppose that in itself is a good reason to go to another agency.

Come to think of it, he said to me, w I like to do temping; and I said no.  I c tell him that I w like to do temping.  Bingo, ding ding ding, right answer.  Omg, I’ve just figured out how to solve this.

I w have to ask him first, how he feels about temping, bc if he isn’t keen then I definitely am not.

To The Difficult Things In Life

K