Hey

It’s four am, and I have my coffee

Croquet is wrapped up for the year now, tho like I have said, there is a coffee morning.

My job interview is tomorrow.  No matter w happens, I feel it w go well.  It seems like such a good place to work and I feel they w be super respectful.  That is worth looking forward to.

I like a place where it’s possible to progress, like Dominoes Pizza.

I feel that a lot of places take advantage of their staff, and that makes them leave.

The way to always have enough staff is to treat them so well that the word gets around of what a good company it is.  Everyone w flock.  To do the opposite just seems dumb to me.

I suppose that a lot of people feel that to get on in life, they have to take advantage of people, especially business.

It c be money corrupting the souls of the management so that they become cold and calloused, and just see their staff as having less value as them.

I feel that if someone is to feel that money is ethical to have in insane amounts of wealth, I feel it’s only natural that they have to justify this theft, if you will, by saying the only reason the poor don’t have it, is bc they are less worthy; like the only real justification for that is grandiosity, w like I say, means that some people have to have less value to make up for that inequality.

It’s just psychology rly, and I feel it’s sad.  It makes every employee miserable in their daily working life, and so many companies do it, I feel.

I feel that the one interviewing me tomorrow, rly are the odd one out, and it’s a rare thing, and I just want to have that interview by way of reconnoissance and just have a close look at them and see how they tick; more out of curiosity rly.

It might help me to spot more companies like this before I waste my time applying.  It hurts to go through those assessments, it just feels like narcissistic devaluing, aka emotional abuse.

It makes me feel so sad that most employers are like this, I feel, and just makes me feel that the world is predominantly evil.

I mustn’t lower my standards tho; and start doing evil myself.  I feel that’s how the world got like this in the first place.

Just like bad employers bring misery and bankruptcy to their own business, J’s commandments do the opposite and bring life and joy.  It’s the truth that it is better not to take advantage of people.  It does the thinker no good and it does no one else any good either.

I guess wealth corrupts.

I also wonder if the more intelligent the family, the more mean they are to their children, making them feel that the only way is to.. they feel that intelligence makes them better than other people.

For example, higher abstract reasoning.

There’s this theory that their is a gene for higher abstract reasoning and only some people have it.  The problem w that is that, no matter w I do when I am about, someone comments on someone who has done the same thing.  Like when I came back in the room, she said, and he came back, I nearly threw him out.

Comparing things is higher abstract reasoning.  So I don’t feel that the gene is responsible, I feel that everyone has it, bc everyone does it, no matter where I am, commenting on things I remind them that people have done.

I feel that it is this need that intelligent people need to feel that they have a gift that other people don’t have.  I feel this to be utter nonsense, and that intelligence is just acquired from exercising the higher functions.

I don’t believe it’s good breeding, I feel that is snobbery, and dehumanisation of those who just don’t want to be smart, probably looking at how callous smart people are generally, I feel; w is also bigotry btw.

It’s the same old cold war, like between minority races and snow people, or men and women.  It’s just attempts to make ground in this standoff; and it leads to people who have no power in this fight, just getting thrown under the bus, I feel.  Those are your people in jobs who are being treated like sh’, I feel.

You may wonder w happens to those who abuse these people.  I feel they kinda lose their soul; they no longer care about those around them, w is spiritual death.

It kinda feels like a bucket of frogs, where some try and elevate themselves and only get pulled down by the others.

I dk if this analogy is quite correct.  It felt  like people were trying to hold me back from the start of me following J’s commandments.

I just wanna make people aware that that’s how it’s gonna feel, and it just has to be accepted and suffered for hella long time, until out of the bucket, so to speak.

I feel that being out of the bucket, is analogous to when the thinker, just judges and worries no more.  I feel at that point, they just don’t have these toxicities w|i that pull them down, that is freedom from feeling pulled down, that is heaven.

I feel that is the point I am approaching in my own journey.  I no longer get angry at people and get noshed in by them, I feel.  I am back to that youth energy where everything seems so easy, kinda; where there seems like there is nothing to worry about, and the world seems my oyster.

To Freedom

K