I had my job interview. I feel it went rly well. I asked for something at the end, and in the middle. I feel that I have to start strong w my boundaries, and for there to be no love bombing at the start.
It pays less, bc of being an apprenticeship. I have to make sure that Ima afford it, w is proving super difficult as the Council won’t tell my how well off I’m likely to be in regards to the council tax help.
Well, I say they won’t help me. I just feel that the lady I spoke to w a bit of a gatekeeper, Ima ring again, and get someone else. I also have my friend at the housing association, she deals w things like that.
She’s on holiday at the moment and won’t be able to get back to me. I c ring them up tho and ask if anyone else has that knowledge.
I have to get it done, bc my interviewer has given me homework to find out so that Ik, like I say, whether Ima afford it. It doesn’t give me much to live on. I’ll be on the same I’m on now.
In Other News
I have faith now, that when I have a full amount of Neurones, my body w revert to not aging.
I feel a change around all the triggers that I feel. Like I feel that people are saying stuff that is sounding like abuse, so much of the time. I feel that it is being around me that is making them do it, that they just feel free to say whatever the hell they want, w is a good thing.
I also feel that these things are not affecting me; how the hell I am weathering it Idk, like I am astounded, like my mind is just handling it; and that’s why I feel that I am approaching the right amount of Neurones.
I actually feel that my number of Neurones has been growing all the time, all this time, and now it is just below the amount where Ima handle pretty much anything. I should stop feeling scared all the time, some time pretty soon.
It feels like I am near to the stage of reversing aging tho Idk how long it w take to get there, c still be some time. I just k that it is the next step, along w, like I say, not feeling triggered at w people say, and not feeling scared to walk to town.
I have to find out when the coffee morning is for my group. I w so wiped out yesterday w trying to find out how much support I w get, that I just left it. I rang up twice and got no answer.
It’s new to me just leaving it for a bit when I ring up and the phone won’t even take my call; having empathy for myself is something that I still c use getting a little better at.
Also, when the lady told me that they wouldn’t be able to tell me what I want to k, I said that I feel that they w, and that I felt that it w just that she personally didn’t k. I didn’t want to be a liar, bc I felt that if I agreed w her then I w be complicit.
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Instagram have blocked their help. That is w w w w w I w trying to access it. Ima just leave it a few days, till it’s working again.
I feel it’s the universe going, hell, no way. I feel that it tries to do this when I am right at the point to achieve something. Good job I have been at this years and am not about to give up. I feel that the universe won’t let someone have something easy.
There’s like this being blocked, and I just need the perseverance to get round it, just a teeny weeny bit of staying power, w I have in spades; yes, tho totally blocked atm.
It means that I w have to be skint for two years while I do my apprenticeship. So it’s twenty hours a week, and two hours of online course. She said that I might have an interview w the higher up manager.
I said, please may I shoot you another CV, bc mine w all messed up, I felt that my word processor had crashed. She said that it looked fine. I must have accidentally sent the wrong one.
I w find out in three days. I’m hoping that that one w be face to face, bc anything else w rly take the pi’.
She said it w an informal interview, I said, that’s great. I rly meant that. Like I don’t need a stuffy af employer. That w w I found appealing about the vacancy.
She said I must look up the company and find something that I wanted about the employer. That’s lying tho, bc when I see the advertisement and application, I don’t have that information so therefore it can’t be w attracted me to the job. Ima try and forget about this, it’s not something that I feel Ima do.
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