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It’s one thirty am, and I have my coffee

I feel my sanity returning, a little.  I w never able to hold boundaries w people, I feel, bc of the way I w manipulated on such a close leash.  It feels normal now, to tell people no, or get help.

There are times to be quiet tho.

I may have taken quite a large hit, by getting my washing machine fixed, Idk; my bed is also on its way out.

We have a charity called CareZone, w allows us to find donated furniture.  I w rly like a nice divan tho.  British Heart Foundation, have such nice stuff.  It’s way better than at a cheap furniture store.

I had to rest yesterday, bc it w the sabbath.  I am able to do stuff today tho.

I’m thinking about The School Of Mentors.  It’s like a club for like thirty bucks, each week, where Ima get help for my business.

On the one hand, I don’t rly have that to spare; tho, I feel that the prices w only go up and this w be a good chance to get that deal.

Authentically, I want to do it all myself.  It actually seems a much better way to do it; to not get my mind polluted w other peoples’ ways of doing things.

Also, I’m not stuck.  I am able to move along w things, and don’t rly have an issue that I need help w.

I had mentoring before, when I w forex trading, and it actually got me doing it right.  I still have to coaching sessions left, w Ima have any time, even tho it has been years.  That kinda promise means a lot.

I have been putting the business off, bc of being ill.  I may have a bash at it this morning, tho there are other things I want to get done.  I have to clean my home as well, w takes priority.

I thought, maybe I should potter around my place and look for things that need doing.  Should I be able to do that, then I don’t need the girl who helps, I don’t need her help anymore; tho I love her visits.

I’m thinking about J’s commandments.  C they rly reverse aging.  Ik that there are pills that do that.

I feel that it’s advanced brain mapping, that hasn’t been discovered yet, where the gene expression of the brain changes, as opposed to just allocating more Neural space to a task.

There are or is, one set of genes that trigger adulthood, where the brain loses half of it’s Neurones and the slack is taken up w strong boundaries.  There is youth genetic expression, where the boundaries are actually the reality that the kid is in.  If someone wants them to do something that is super f up, they say, no f way.

It’s a reality, where the kid never worries about situations where they c be taken advantage of, bc that never works.  Whereas adults w look at a situation, and imagine telling the person where to go, and get f up over it.

Adults always moaning that this or that wasn’t okay, w is their boundaries, whereas kids their strength is just in being so rooted in reality that they k what isn’t right, and don’t have to psych themselves up over things people have done.

It’s like a switch, travelling from one reality to another in the later teenage years, where the actual gene expression of the brain changes.  Reversing this gene expression by downregulating the process of judging and worrying and moaning, and entering back that first reality, may actually trigger the genes that reverse aging.  They are called the Yamanaka Genes.

There are four of them, activating three of them w do this, and has been done many times, in different ways in the lab; from actually Implanting these genes, to triggering them in cells, bc chemically inducing it.

It’s all there.  It’s totally possible, and I have faith in that.

I feel it’s like critical mass in nuclear physics.  As I approach this state of brain gene expression, my hedgehog pathway gets activated, and the hedgehog pathway, speeds up the change, w activates it even more, and so on, until I am catapulted into a new reality, w the Hedgehog Pathway triggered wide open, w brings the Yamanaka Genes online.

Yes, it’s kinda rocket science.

It’s not as I previously thought, w w the body getting more of a foothold on being young, through less cortisol in the body, tho this may also be true.

This adult reality, is also a high cortisol state of being, w the person getting triggered all the time.  That’s why they moan a lot, expressing all the things that have caused these triggers.

To The Biological Process Of Immortality

K