It’s one thirty, I’m having some CBD.
I watched dollblush, livestream this morning. It w a lot of fun. I w in the bath, listening, and then doing my sh’ and popping in and out.
There w only three of us at bowling this morning; it w good fun tho.
I haven’t been out for almost a week, so it w be good to have much more to do. It wasn’t too bad actually; I thought I might become mentally ill, tho I didn’t.
It’ll be so nice to have knit and natter, tomorrow; and Mahjong on Thur.
The penny’s just dropped that it’s taking me longer to type, bc I’m not getting text predictions.
My phone, w using satellite, for data. That’s crazy.
I w thinking about how all technologies are actually moving at the speed of computers.
I guess, there’s this vibe, that computer technology is overtaking everything else, that it is the only technology that is nuts.
It’s not true tho. All fields of technology, I feel, are accelerating just as fast.
I’m not going out today, I’m okay, bc I’ve seen people.
I got lots of soup. I want to have it for lunch bc it’s super cheap. Ima get a flask for it. I’ve chosen one I like, tho it’s out of stock atm. I hope it’s in soon, bc I’m bored of pate. It has a spoon and everything.
I’m a bit worried about getting arthritis w so much tomato, tho I probs won’t bc, it w my scooter rattling that gave me it.
I hope my social skills are up to working. I only started socialising properly like Idk, like six years ago, less even. I could only listen for like two years before I chimed in. Ik, it’s super sad. I try not to think about sh like that, I rly do. There’s a lot in my head, that I can’t touch.
It’s all good tho. I don’t need therapy, I’m healing just fine; and Idk what the f for, my psychiatrist wanted to send me. Ik I requested help, tho that w have been so wrong for me.
For example, his help involves me thinking as much as I can, and judging the f out of people. Like that w have made me ill, and when I say ill, I mean like, well, just ill, I feel that all people who judge are ill. Like they don’t feel themselves like half the time. Nah, f it; I mean it w have given me mental illness and stopped my recovery; so, when I talk about therapy, I think it w have been just as bad.
Idek how Ik; like, I just didn’t want the head narcissist to be ripping into me all the time.. during group therapy, and I made that clear. It’s kinda scary how Ik what is good for me.
Ik I’m emotionally unstable; tho, I can’t just get better overnight.. even tho I have. There 👏 is 👏 no, speeding up recovery, apart from following J’s commandments, I feel, like for example, using therapy.
I’m pretty monged out rn, after two doses of CBD, today. I just wanna creep into bed.
I’ve got notification up, when doll posts. I’m probably not gonna hear them tho. I may have to fix that.
Like, w a focus, Ima exclude certain things from being silenced and pick the notifications from that apps I wanna hear. I’m hooked.
I never watched her before; tbh I got triggered and turned it the hell off. I rly enjoyed it. I love technology. Like YouTube and Netflix are the best; Ide like hollywood films anymore.
It’s rly actually touched me, bc I always though there w something about her, like we’re similar people or something; and I feel that’s totally true after this morning.
Like some people c be close, bc they have some sh in common, other people can be close, bc they are a similar kinda person; in this case, meaning authentic. I’ve gotta start watching other people on Twitch.
To Twitch
K
Miss K 