Hey

It’s half past midnight, and I have my coffee

I’m still holding that commandments, leap for joy bc great is your reward in heaven.  I hold that this is true.  I can’t fault all of J’s commandments, bc they absolutely do work.  There is no reason to believe that this isn’t true.

Also, I must hold to it, as it is the only way to reverse my biological age and be young again.  I believe in this.  It’s what I want more than anything.

I remember when I looked in the mirror and saw someone old.  That w horrible.  That no longer is the case, I’m not haggard anymore.

It’s a good way to avoid all the things that come w age, like arthritis, dementia, etc.  Just stay young, it’s a cure all.

I feel that this path is the best one.  It may involve some persecution, tho I feel it is much better.  Even now, I feel very young, and am full of the vibes.  I w never give this up, w w I have now, so why would I turn down w the future has to offer.  It’s rly a choice, as all things are, and authenticity is allowing me to embrace it; to k who I am, and live in alignment w that.

Getting a job is not my main concern; it is, keeping J’s commandments, and choosing life.  It’s my sole focus.

It has shown me that Ima take crap, I feel, and not say anything, w w w I w worried about.  I felt scared that I w unload on someone and then my spiritual journey w be over.  It literally w scaring me to death.

Just bc no one has ever done this before, doesn’t mean I can’t do it.  I have faith.  Yes it kinda scares me, as I said before; like a twelve year old running round who is actually fifty, w draw some attention, something that I don’t like.

Tho, who’s to k that I’m not twelve, people can’t tell.  Could get me into trouble; like if someone looked at my ID and it said fifty and then, well, they w do me for identity fraud.  Nicer problems to have rly.  Ima not think about that, bc it’s a mash.

I don’t feel the anti aging pill w be out soon.  Everyone’s a luddite, they don’t even like vaping, how are they gonna like that.  I don’t see it, I see them holding off on that for like twenty years.  I don’t have twenty years.

Ik that my hedgehog pathway is already stimulated bc I’m no perv.  There is no sexual ill health w|i me.  That means that my hippocampus is producing new brain cells every day, just like sex does.  It’s a major reward in and of itself, to walk past fit girls, and they like flick their hair at me and stuff.  It’s dope af.

I even got called a hottie.  Any idea w a thrill that is.

This is the thing, that, my persecution is coming from the same people who are calling me hot.  Ima not have one w|o the other, it’s like the dark side of it all, and feeling young af at my age, has one hell of a dark side.

I wanted this, ever since I lost it when I w a teen.  It has been a need w|i me to get it back, to get my sanity back.  Adult reality just won’t do, I need to be a teen.

Ik there is a lot of judgement w|i me, tho Ik that teens judge a lot as well.  I’ve heard gang members premeditating violence and Ik that they have a screw loose.  I’m hearing those comments too much, I hate it.  I don’t want my town feeling like this.

All Ima do, is try to not judge as much as possible.  I must eradicate it from my mind.  I must remove the judgement brain map tout suite; so that my gene expression of my brain changes and reverts back to jamming my hedgehog pathway fully open.  Not only w it reverse my age, I feel, tho it w rev up my immune system.

In a teen, the immune system totally replenishes itself in two weeks.  In an old person I think it’s a couple of years.

It’s like they say in the music industry; you’ve got to want it so bad.  I do.  It’s driving my nuts.  I feel my hedgehog pathway opening already, the life blood runs through my veins, willing me to try harder.  The closer I get, the more I want it.

I’m reaching critical mass, where my age reversal just takes off, propelled by its own momentum, accelerating until all the systems of my body are in overdrive just like the youth immune system, then something has to give, and it is the Yamanaka genes that give way, and I have broken through the barrier that no one in history has been through.

I don’t want attention, I want youth.  I don’t like judging people, when I w young, I didn’t even k what judgement w.  I need that again, I don’t feel sane w|o it.  It’s a need; like I say, it’s driving me nuts.

To Age Reversal

K