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It’s about one am, and I have my coffee

I w thinking about persecution and judgement.  When I don’t judge, the evil of someone persecuting me, does not touch me.

It is evil that makes that person judge, and it is the judgement that is evil.  Evil people are evil bc they judge; then if I judge the evil person, then a little of that evil rubs off on me.

Another way of looking at it, this, is that judgement is just irrelevant, and people who judge are irrelevant; moreover, me judging a situation is irrelevant, or a person.  It actually has no bearing on reality; like I say it just makes me more evil.  It distorts my reality, that’s how it makes me evil.

I can’t afford to be irrelevant, relevance is my skill.  Fortunately, the less I judge, the more relevant I become; Ik this is true.

I feel the more people say evil things around me, the more I become a stone cold baddie.  I kinda have been caught in a baddie lately.  I have to get out of it, and the only way out is through, and I have committed to just pay it no mind, and watch as it evaporates into irrelevance.

I feel threatened, just like I felt, when I decided to let people in, as I w walking, and feared being taken advantage of.  The feelings of fear totally disappeared, and I broke through to just being more present, and calm.  The same w happen w this.  If I have the faith that I w be safe, to just ignore it, it w go away, leading me to be more serene and graceful.

That’s the thing about judging.  Should I judge that they are a threat, that only fills me w fear, and c lead me to doing or saying something f up.  Judgement is bad.  This is not my first rodeo.  I have skills from dealing, that w apply to this quite well

It’s like G says, the more I have been trusted w, the more I w be given to test me; I’m paraphrasing.  It’s in the parable of the ten minas, or gold coins.

That’s the thing about G; the more dope I get, the more dope she wants me to become.  It’s a never ending process; and through persecution, is how I am tested; that’s why persecution is deemed to be of, such great value.

The problem w modern psychology, is that, it w have me reporting said behaviour, like some kinda pussy; and that gets me to thinking, like bad behaviour at work, for example.  How do I deal.  Probably best to just ignore it.

Ik I’m no expert.  I come from a whole life of abuse, I feel.  Tho this is my take on it.  I always wonder where the f, my boundaries are.

That’s the thing that always nags at me; like I’ve never stood up to anyone, my whole life, I just don’t feel that there is any point to it.  Abusive people are psychopathic in nature, they w just push harder.  Psychopathy is rage, at normal behaviour.  They w lose it big time.  It’s rly quite basic, I feel.  I’m a bit of an expert.

It can only lead to condemning, and that is outlawed in the Bible.  Let’s be savvy for just one moment.  One complaint leads to another, then another, and eventually the person is getting fired

They have the right to be here.  Does not the Bible say that the, sun and the rain fall on both the righteous and the wicked.  I feel it urges me to just let them be.

Yes, they are essentially animals in human form, I feel.. so.

I feel people just be getting offended at the very existence of these people.  It’s an anomaly in nature.  Their lack of empathy allows them to manipulate everyone around them, to great effect.  All developing countries are led by these people, in every position of power, I feel.  They climbed through society by just aggravating the empathy of normal people.  It works.

In Other News

I’ve got to contact the help in Facebook, and start a dialogue w them, and resolve my payment method.  Also, there are some jobs coming up that are pretty attractive, so that is tempting.

It’s rly just self care, self care, self care, and the rest of life, just takes care of itself.  Day by day, week by week.  My self esteem grows and that is the result that I need.

J says, do not worry, each day has enough trouble of its own.  That is the main issue, fearing things.  When that is deal w, there are only reasonable challenges to deal w, and it’s easier.  It tips the balance and there can be headway.

Judging Is Irrelevant

K