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Self esteem

Self esteem is w enables someone, to run a business.  It allows the mind to function better.  It allows the person, eventually to be in the flow state.  In the flow state, there is no stopping them, anything is possible.

I found my way to self esteem, w J’s commandments.  I guess it’s just treating people super well, and watching as they love me back.  That raises my self esteem.

I feel that some people feel that self esteem has to be stolen, by being pushy w people.  This is not self esteem, it’s grandiosity.  Tho I believe I am a lifelong victim of abuse and not the best authority on boundaries.

Different generations f differently; tho it makes me wonder if they were the same as we are in their youth; and that scarily, we w be like them, when we are older.

I wonder if being emotionally unstable is a form of psychopathy.  I find myself thinking that the way I think and feel is a bit odd.  I love me anyway tho.  Also Ik that everyone has problems w empathy.  We all judge and that makes us calloused.

I w scared, thinking that everyone w evil.  Did that mean that I w.  J says that whatever measure you use to judge someone, it w be measured to you; a thought I’d rather let go.  It scares me how wac I felt.

In Other News

The business w not be running any time soon.  W these new changes that I have made, it w take time to bring them to life.  I need to create the images and taglines.  I also need to k how to merge two images into one; w w probably take some sort of app or something, and that’s even if Ima be able to do it on my phone.

Again, here’s to the zoomable browser, that allows me to do all this.

When I got myself a device, I chose an iPhone, bc of the zoomable browser.  I thought I c buy a laptop and the browser w still not work.  I had no idea how to ensure that it did for the money I w willing to spend.

I needed a phone anyways and just chose to go that way.  It w a bold move and it has worked out.  Like I say tho, the only problem c be that there are no desktop apps for the phone, and I feel there well should be.  Ima doobie all my software platforms on my browser tho I can’t have all the apps on my phone, meh!.

It makes no sense to me.  It feels like the technology is still catching up w w people use the device for, and that there is no leadership in what the device can be used for in creative ways, and emerging needs.  Things seem painfully slow.

I’m just drawn to the phone, bc it is so small.  Ima take it anywhere and just work on my sh.  I don’t feel attracted to anything bigger.  I feel it should be useable as a desktop, and will apple to lean into that.  It probably has the power to do everything except video editing.  I see the potential and feel a wee bit disappointed.

Tho not complaining bc I have never had problems running the business from my phone, apart from when the Insta app would load and mess up me working on Insta.com.  I had to delete the app.  That’s annoying.

That’s the thing about authenticity.  It makes me wanna do things my way; especially if it means that I am the only one f like that.  I don’t look for ways to be different, it’s just rly out of pragmatism.  Authenticity is an act of honesty; I wish it c do this, I wish it c do that; maybe it can.

You see, devices w not exist until we create them.  Needs w not be met until we meet them; and why the hell are e scooters still not legal; off topic slightly.

I feel that ludditery is still as alive and well as it always was.  People are against anything new.  This pi me off, if I’m to be honesty about it.  Why are people so basic.  I want to see things being created, us moving forwards, needs being met, like I say.  Why should people go w|o just bc people are drunk on dogma.  I feel it’s like a drug to some people.  I feel that they just wanna feel that they are in the right, like they get off on it.

Let’s flip things upside down.  I admire those who think for themselves, are creative and breath life in to new things and meet the needs of people.  Those that bring new things into existence, just give us w w need.  Identify a need and move toward making it a reality, even thinking of new things that could be created, before anyone has even noticed.

Here’s to musicians and singers, who bring us songs out of their own imagination, and give us new music, tv that is new and represents the times, w the vibe of rn that is so exquisite I wanna squeal.  I celebrate the new moment, ever changing and dope af w every new vibe, sipping on these vibes like some kind of addictive candy, mommy saying I’ve had too much.  I throw a tantrum and plot when next to sneak some in.

To The New New, To Quote, Mike And Dave Need Wedding Dates

K