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I’m down Ferry Meadows, Having CBD.

I’m struck by how young I look.  I feel that I look like thirty at times.  Even my hair seems to be turning back to color and getting more soft.

I go after, being young, w renewed optimism.  I had a bad few days, bc of freaking the f out, and I w dissociated from it.  I never k that it’s possible to be dissociated by things that weren’t even happening, tho it’s true.

I am getting myself back to normal, where being young w my main focus.

I had another focus come in yesterday.  I w in Orton and felt some dope vibes.  I made it my priority to embody it more.

Another focus I have is being attractive.  Ik, one cannot serve to masters, as J says, tho I feel that I w be allowed this, on top of everything, just like I am allowed G’s kingdom, w means a decent income as well.

It all feels like it’s coming together, all my wishes.  It’s lovely to feel I look and feel young.

The first time I watched dollblush, and w able to handle it, it felt amazing.  There w something about her youth that rly spoke to me.  It’s more than presence, it has something, something special; and I enjoyed being in that zhé while I w there; and just wanted so hard to be back soon.

It’s that mind that doesn’t worry or judge.  That’s how these people are to me, I feel.  W all that out of the way, something special comes through.

For a long time, it w be the highlight of my day, sitting down in front of different ASMR, w that vibe; tho now things have changed, Ima embody that vibe actually w|i me.  I feel youthful.

It’s so alluring, and at the same time, I feel it w get so much stronger, I have so much faith in that.  It is, in and of itself, such a good feeling to feel that it is there, for me, when I am ready to embody it.

It’s like the six years that I spent recovering, due to J’s commandments.  At the start I didn’t have the ability, to hold the reality, that six years later, I now have.  It’s a slow process.

What is different with rn, is that, I feel that it is there, waiting for me.  It w hard, not being able to picture recovery.  This is a game changer.

In Other News

With the business, I tried to log into Anakin.  I had problems and left it alone.  Some time later, I came back and looked in my spam folder.  It w there.  I w be ready to go again, soon.

I thought about how much I got done in two months.  I had totally written my landing page, learning how to use Hostinger, along the way.

Should I do, like something every morning, even just figure out that I need to look in my spam folder, I w get tons done in two months.  That’s sixty little jobs done.

I c be looking at everything set up, and ready to go.  Just push the button and play the game.  It’s one step closer, always one step closer.

There’s, w do I do, w J’s commandments; there’s rly nothing that Ima change there.  The only thing available to me, is to carry on not worrying and judging, and all the other things Ima do.  The simplicity of the thing blows my mind.

It’s a bit like marketing.  All I ever needed w a vibe, I feel, w came w time.  I feel that vibe grow w|i me.  Ik that it is that vibe that fuels my creativity, when it comes to the business.  It’s a font, of everything I need to smash it.

I originally thought that I w need a course and learn it from someone.  This quickly went out the window when I read a book that taught me absolutely nothing.  The crazy thing is is that, when I saw the cover, Ik that this w be the case.  At least I learned something, that learning it from someone won’t help.

There is something that I can learn.  Ima go through the Insta Ad Library, and look at the ads, and how much they have been run, and just soak up the vibe.  If the vibe is there, I w feel it.  There w be something abstract that they are doing, some kind of common theme.  Not one that runs through all ads, tho there w be some that have a certain vibe, and among them, there w be something about that genre of marketing that stands out to me.

It’s a far cry from Unbounce, where they have very dry landing pages w sensible selling points.  This is a whole new genre of marketing.

First I felt a little daunted.  This w something new, c I have the self esteem to be able to hold, w learning about this w tell me.

I’m getting off track.  I have everything I need, w|i me, to be able to hit this out of the park, learning for myself, w I should do to market my offer.  It’s all w|i.  I have done enough of this to k that everything I need to learn is w|i.  Just trying my best and muddling through w be all I need to..

I don’t like to say that this w work.  I have done that before, and when it didn’t it hurt bad.  You get my point tho.

All Good Things Rn

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