Month: Nov 2025

Earlier I’m down Ferry Meadows I got to thinking about this warmth. It’s kind of like the commandment, treat people how you wanna be treated. So if I wanna feel this way, I have to allow others to feel this way off of me also.  I always remember Ferry Meadows being a happy place, when…

It’s four am, I have my coffee Operation Vibes To feel fully sane at my home; just like I used to when I w a kid, to like it here, that much. To Have that by Christmas w be a miracle.  Ik I’m moving fast, being sucked into this world of feeling.  I suppose it happened, since…

I’m down Ferry Meadows I intended to use my warmth this morning. I got scared though, I felt like I was protecting myself. it wasn’t until I started to get angry and a real realize what was going on. Anger has its own zhè. I feel it’s one of the most destructive forces, so I…

It’s four am, I have my coffee Thinking about this consciousness that I’m in, c it get stronger.  Well it has gotten stronger the whole time I have been doing this.  I accept that it w judgement, that kept me out of this reality, being able to feel vibes.  Only stands to reason, that as I follow it…

I went to Mahjong today; it w good.  It kinda felt like super friendly, almost family vibes.  I ate my sandwiches on the way back, bc I w starting to wig out and hear people saying stuff about me, I felt.  Long walk back, did some shopping on the way. W the business, I have come up w…

It’s two thirty am, I have my coffee I’m a little scared by the feeling I get, that everyone is an angel, and that when I eat, it goes away.  I w asked to ring my doctor, w I did. I finally got hold of my vitamins, and w be able to take something that has…

I’m down Ferry Meadows I’ve decided to leave, one of my clubs.  It affects three days a week.  I must find other things to do. I’ve had schizophrenia, for well over a week, brought on by coming off my vitamins, I feel.  I have felt much better today; for a while, I w in crisis, so much fear.…

Hey It’s midnight, I have my coffee I am still going to my groups; w keep me, and my mind healthy.  Ik this is the way of preventing a relapse. For some reason, I have been feeling out of sorts the last few days.  It c be bc people are verbally abusing me 24/7, Idk if it’s…

It’s midnight, I have my coffee I’m feeling a little scared.  I’m kinda stressed, bc of w I am feeling that people are saying.  It’s too horrendous to put on here tho.  I feel that it has affected my illness and kinda made me a little sick.  Hopefully things w settle down. I had my visit from the girl…