It’s midnight, I have my coffee
Idk whether to go w Anakin, or find something better. For some reason, there seems like this huge urgency.
My coffee’s definitely got notes of chocolate.
Usually w I’ll do, is do something for the business, and feel triggered; then watch a Youtube video, then go back to it. That’s my goal. This is bc I wanna apply for jobs as well.
I realized that I have to take the jobs slow, just like the business, using, being in flow, to create the perfect CV. Like I said, I feel I have to be perfect, I have to embody like total usefulness to employers, and that comes from my talents of creativity.
I thought about going for management. My skills of humility w do me well there, asking them, please may you do this, please may you do that, getting their opinion on w should be done. I feel that a manager serves the employees and not the other way round.
I’ve seen the worst manager typified on YouTube. It w one of those where the CEO is undercover. He said that he had to treat the employees like sh, bc that’s what they deserved, or something like that. He w fired. That w at some kind of chicken joint or something.
On The Mentalist, he w say, yes, middle management; bc he w be throwing shade on a manager w w mean to the employees, he w say, catch more flies w honey.
It’s funny that, how the CEO tends to be very receptive to the feelings of the employees. In the most successful businesses, the CEO makes the entire business a safe space, so that all improvements to the business and ideas for how to make things better, can come up the chain. This is the best source of information on these things, and makes for tremendous profitability.
It also negates the need to prostrating herself, trying to think of things to make the business better. It just makes things so much easier.
Who’d have thunk that, making the environment a place where people actually wanna come into work and feel valued w be so powerful, and that they just never wanna leave.
This actually has such a powerful effect on profitability, it can save a million, in just a relatively small business.
It’s tempting, and I might just do it, make some time to work that in.
In Other News
I feel that following J’s commandments has made me look young; like I w wondering when my Yamanaka genes w be activated, tho I feel, it’s a slow process of gradually changing gene expression w youth genes being turned on the whole time I have been fw this.
No huge change, just gradually settling into younger and younger feeling vibes and looks.
I measure my progress by what I am taking in on YouTube. Like my comprehension w at a certain level to begin w; then it stepped up w me getting more closer to the vibe, of w w said, ever changing and just chilling, into the peace of youth; all the time seeing myself nearer and nearer to my goal of complete awareness.
It kinda turns things on its head, to feel that kids have the real reality. I feel this is true tho. The closer I get to it, the more I have a testimony of its dopeness.
I have wanted this, ever since my consciousness fell off a cliff, when I w coming out of my late teens. I had the consciousness of a squirrel for some reason, and w completely unemployable, my confidence gone.
I had been out of work for a couple of years, and I felt that this did me major psychological damage. Tbh, I never recovered from that till much later. I feel I have been mentally ill all my life, longing for that peace of youth, the whole time.
It just seems so bizarre that I feel I now am close to having it, and am actually working towards it w the belief that it w happen; seems crazy. Tbh, Ima not think of a better outcome.
My faith in J’s commandments is so strong, bc of following them and them healing me like gangbusters, that it just seems normal to continue them and let them do their work and take me there.
To Faith
K
Miss K 