Hey

I’m down fairy Meadows 

I’m into the territory again where I’m not thinking. I don’t know how I got here, but I’m glad I made this choice.

Really I was worried about toxic, moaning, after being at one of my groups and empathizing with a lot of people doing that. it’s just not my thing personally, and I thought the best way to deal with that, was to just stop thinking. I just really resonate with my authenticity and wants to be true to myself.

Which is good, because I’ve done it; and it just feels so amazing, to have listened to myself in that way. I was playing Pétanque and I was playing so much better, as well.

It’s kinda hard, being different to other people. Because I like all of them, I just wanna be like them. There’s no way though that I can change. I’m just so so me and I’m really glad that I am me because I want to be this person .

J’s commandments, have done so much for me, and I’m scared of losing them. It was real fear, and I was actually super scared

I seem to be going through cycles, I was doing this before. I was really panicking so much, that I just couldn’t let my thoughts in, they upset me too much; so when I was playing pétanque, I was actually playing much better

I’m still enjoy everybody, moaning, I love it so much. I just sit there smiling my ass off. 

And it’s a part of being respectful, understanding that people moan, and seeing it as like a entertaining thing.

I think that’s why I was so often triggered, anybody who moaned, I just didn’t understand it. I resented them, because I was just unaware of the emotions that they were feeling as they said the things they said. 

In Other News

I tried to delete my AI account, and I ran into a massive problem. I feel that the way the payments are cancelled, is by deleting the account. The problem was, though, that I found it impossible to delete the account I feel.

So I feel I’ve really dodged a bullet there, that I could’ve been just making payments up till the year dot, or have to actually close my payment method at the bank 

Looking for another app, that I can use for AI, and I have to search for the best one

Well, I suppose, each problem brings me closer to a working business. 

Take me awhile to read the reviews, on which is the best app. I find it triggering, and can only like read a little bit and then I have to stop for a little while 

I feel this energy around the business, though it feels amazing. I feel so much self-esteem for what I’m doing with it.

Forget mindset I’m literally on fire with belief 

It seems like the secret to life, is just doing those little things every day, just living every day, just doing self-care, getting through it day by day, and really throughout all that and give it some time or even a lot of time and amazing things happen 

The energy is ecstasy, though I’m still not telling myself that it’s gonna work.  The energy is with me all the time, it requires no thought or reasoning.

And I was thinking about success, I feel that this is what it is, it’s an energy. Like I feel that I’m there. What more could I want in life?

I guess just being bored, because I don’t have anything exciting to say, is okay. It’s just such a good trade-off; like I’ll have this energy, and enjoy this energy, and that is enough

To Energy

K