I’m down Ferry Meadows, Having CBD
Pétanque w fun; like it’s the first time, when I felt it w fun. I feel that that’s how it is w socializing, that it’s fun.
Everybody has their quirks. Everybody makes mistakes. It just makes it fun. Like, honestly, the only thing allowing me to cope w the social interaction w J’s commandments.
Like, I felt shame, when I bombed someone else’s ball out. I just followed the commandments to cope w the situation.
I brought a sandwich w me. I had thought that I had not worn enough, so Ik it w keep me warm, and it did. It w sunny the whole time.
It’s good that life can be enough, every day.
This morning, I w stressed. People were saying a lot of things. This has been happening lately; like I’ve gone from someone that no one w talk to, I feel, to someone who everybody is dying to confess to, or moan about people to; w is also a kind of confession. It shows me how they judge people. It also has me standing up for them. I usually take their side.
I have been aware of this rift between men and women. This is something that I highly dislike. It scares me that people c be so divided, have these feelings towards each other.
I feel like a child, learning about the world, and this is something that I w rather not k. I don’t want to get into the way that people just.. demographics, just targeting other demographics, I feel. It frightened me.
Tho things are okay now tho. There are some groups that moan and some that don’t. It’s to do w the type of person that I am, that I mostly fw people, who are calmer at tearing other people down. It means that I have just the right balance of so many comments, at other people.
It makes me wonder whether I w always be this person, or if I w gravitate more to the people who are very vocal about things. Tbh I love the variety.
Then there’s, will younger people be saying these things about people, they seem to. It c be a generational thing. W not being into that, mean I’m out of touch. Idk.
I suppose it c be like, something that bc of my age, I struggle w, it kinda gives me a nervous breakdown, not rly. Tho, as I move through eras, towards the younger generation, I w have to deal w more and more, that takes a lot of resilience to deal. I feel they are the healthiest and may just wear me out.
People talk about time travel, space travel, tho never of generational travel, era travel. Do people rly think that life is downhill all the way, that it is not possible. It seems that the direction people move in is forwards, they don’t even think about moving backwards.
Like that Luke Skywalker dude, said star wars w good, as long as someone isn’t trying to relive their youth. That’s exactly w I’m doing, and these are my favorite moments. This is w I live for. It is such a blessing to be drinking from the well of youth.
I feel sad that people are so put off by it, I feel they are sorely missing out. It’s just a dogma thing. Why do people say that something that is so fulfilling and sublime, is bad for a person. That’s wac, I feel. I guess it makes me the luckiest. It feels that way too
I get to watch ASMR tonight. I love it so much. Starling had this video that w so tingly. She put the camera behind glass and w squishing stuff on it.
I thought about how people do a lot, and that is truly a healthy choice. It keeps the mind from going nuts. That’s why they are so mentally healthy; that’s why they can get along. They have their way of coping, and I have mine. People are so interesting.
I wish to sample the working people; and find out, what it feels like to be around them. Like I say, I feel I w hear a lot things, that w take me all my bandwidth to experience. I bet these people are young, I have an interview on Wed, and we w all be there.
I get to see who Ima work w, and it may be dope af. I may get home, so happy at these being the people there. It w be like reconnaissance. It w be the first time that I actually k who I w be working w, what they are like, what their vibe is. How did my life get this good.
To Life
K
Miss K 