It’s two am, I have my coffee
I feel that all adults judge. There are opposing judgements; like w one demographic, judging the other, and them judging them back.
I’m finding it hard to not judge, rn, knowing this. In fact, I struggle w judgement all the time. I just keep it out my mind as best I can, just telling myself that the only thing Ima deal w rn, is what I’m doing rn.
Like when my mind wanders off, I just bring it back to only dealing w w I am doing. For example, if I’m on the bus, I’m only dealing w just sitting there and riding and watching the scenery go by; bringing myself back to the present by saying that all the time.
I w do this w works all the time. I w not allow myself to try and figure out how to do things w the business, unless it w the time that I had allocated for this.
I suppose Ima not judge, then I see the judgement in other people, then it’s a struggle to not do it, being aware of that. There’s thoughts like, well if that’s how much they judge, then I shouldn’t worry about if I slip sometimes. They don’t help tho.
In Other News
I want to get a dab stick; bc I am vaping w a powerful vape and they do cause cancer a little bit.
My everyday vape is just a tiny one that is probably quite safe, tho my CBD one blows clouds like a f steam engine.
Truth is I threw the wrong one away, that’s why I don’t have one.
There’s definitely a kid world and an adult one. Kids not judging and adults doing it. Now I believe more firmly in the transition during late teens to the adult world, like I say, being more aware of the rifeness of adult judgement.
It’s kinda scaring me, bc it seems that J’s commandments are correct, and that I w end up triggering my youth genes by doing this, I feel.
It doesn’t scare me to be an adult that doesn’t judge, aka a kid. It’s a need I have, to be back in that mind zhè. I honestly find it hard to believe that there is anyone who doesn’t do it.
It’s like the pestilence or something. Ima try and cure myself and end up that I can’t die.
What if this gave me a testimony of J’s commandments and just made me believe. That w be dope af. I w never feel scared.
Judgement is definitely the pestilence. It’s a disease of the soul. It rots our bodies from the inside out. Judgement leads to more judgement, w leads to more judgement, until the person is atrophied to the point that there isn’t much left of them.
Ima be real w y’all, judgement is stealing our dopeness. It’s not about them, why not be selfish and only worry about the self. Wasting time on judging others, when one can be selfish and just leave them the f alone.
That’s w I’m saying, Ima be selfish; and not worry about issues like it’s my responsibility to join the hate, or whatever the f. No, again, Ima be selfish, it’s all about me, leaving all that sh alone. 👏 self 👏 care. I choose to not get old and die, I feel.
And it does feel selfish. Like I’m walking around like a kid, enjoying the media that feels like the same stuff I used to fw when I w young. This is as dope as f balls, J’s commandments have done this for me.
I w continue, if it were only, to feel more of this feeling, be more in this reality; and the fact that it seems endless and that it just gets more and more dope, is just nutty.
Like, there’s more of this. If I continue I w get more dope; yes please. I have to say it, like this c well lead to youth, it is rly that off.
The scary thing is that the human body has the ability to reset its age back to youth. Oh, this is seeming well f real.
Like I just wanted to be a kid again, I never thought about being dope. Like that’s the scary thing; like, Idk what being dope is like, like I’m scared of dopeness, its something that I have never experienced and it frightens me, on like how people w react to me if I were super dope.
Hopefully Ima not get much more dope than this, before my age resets.
To Not Being In Adult Reality
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