It’s two am, I have my coffee
I feel that people are saying evil stuff to me, just like J talks about in the bible. I feel it’s everywhere I go.
I remember the parable of the wicked servant. It seems to say to me, that they aren’t even as crazy as I w about fifteen years ago. I feel Ima survive it tho; like I got around and didn’t even feel bad. J says leap for joy when people do this, bc great is your reward in heaven.
I wonder if this c be it, me aging backwards in a huge way.
I’m trying to not think. I don’t want to judge them. Perhaps their illness is judging people. Should I judge them then that w make me ill like them, I feel. It’s also a serious business, I feel it w make me more susceptible to their evil words. It’s rly like the only way round is through.
In Other News
I don’t feel I got the job yesterday.
It’s not rly about avoiding people; like if I just made money from the business, and stayed at home. I feel it’s healthier to get out.
I go to these clubs bc they are healthy for me, such an ironic thing, given w I feel is going on. Like I need these people.
Like I say, the evil I feel they said did not bother me, I still enjoyed myself. I feel it w super disturbing, tho I enjoyed myself.
I’m hoping that when my mind is fully healthy that they w stop saying these things to me. This c be true, simply bc their words kinda don’t bother me anymore.
I must try and create the AI image that I need this morning, and I’ve got to look for jobs.
I told myself that I wasn’t gonna play the interview game, that it w irrelevant. This w true, it w not in any way used at the interview I went to. I feel so relieved and validated that I went w my gut.
It kinda makes me think that w the business, I am doing the right thing. It’s super weird being in charge of this. I may as well go all in and do it any the f, way I want. It gives me a chance to rly go w my gut.
It allows me to rly listen to my authenticity, and do it my own way, tune into my self and the unique way that me personally w do this, rly just trust myself, like Ima lean on myself for support and come through for myself, like the only one who can do this for myself is me.
This is an interesting perspective. There is so much talk on YouTube about how to run an affiliate marketing business. It’s rly just trusting that Ima take myself there and mostly don’t need them. Accept that I have the value w|i myself to make that happen.
I have pétanque today. Again, my friends are the air that I breathe. They are w has powered me to step up and be righteous. They are the fuel that flies this ship. I am aware that most of my healing happened when I w fw them.
Tidying my flat also helped hella. It just improved my self esteem and that allowed me to function better and make better decisions, it leveled me up. Shout out to the girl that helps me w that.
I am aware now how much J’s commandments have helped, how my mind is so much healthier now. I see that I am righteous. J promises the kingdom and the righteousness on anyone who follows his commandments, and ngl, that has happened for me.
I feel that J’s commandments are the most powerful way to level up. I am flabbergasted at the power they have had, to do that. It only makes sense that G is the biggest powerhouse, I feel.
J talks of a physical birth, and then a spiritual one. I feel that I am experiencing a spiritual birth, where it is taking me higher than the physical world c do by itself.
Tbh I only have the consciousness of a kid, I kinda feel. I guess I’m there, I got my dream. I said to myself that I had missed out on things, and that I w become young again so that Ima experience them, I felt.
I sit here w my whole life ahead of me, wondering what the point of life is, feeling that it is just to be on this path. Tbh I w like to meet others who have been through this stage, w evil things being said about them; w|o just breaking and becoming like them.
To Leaping For Joy
K
Miss K 