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It’s three am, I have my coffee

My neighbors have a listening device they are using to torture me.  It means that they may have my whole campaign.  I have to decide whether to have something done about it.

I rly have seen evil, and I feel Ik now, how evil people are towards trans people.  I had to put up with two to three hours of people insulting me and saying that I w gonna rip, all bc of a video hating trans people online, I feel.

I feel that these people cause people’s deaths on the regular w their bullying.  All Ima think about it is that they are evil, that every single person, give or take is evil, that they are murderers, I feel.

Someone’s up in my loft,  they just clapped their hands.  They can get in there from another flat.  All this is happening bc I wacked my neighbors who were watching me, by pulling something out my fridge.

It has shown me how right I w, all along, for following J’s commandments; that I don’t have any of this in my heart, and am able to see all of it, I feel.

It gives me faith rly, that these commandments will continue to do for me w I need them to, that they are a good thing.

I’m trying to use my joy, that the only reason these things are happening, is bc I have leveled up so much that it makes them more evil towards me, I feel.

Amazed rly, how just not judging has made me this way, I feel.

When the commandment said, when people say all kinds of evil, on account of me; that just changed everything.  That w w I realized that these things that people were saying were evil, actually evil; and then I never needed to judge their motives or anything, bc at that point Ik that they were evil, so there w no point judging them.

It helped me tremendously, to not judge them.  From that point onwards, I pretty much didn’t need to think about it.

The strange thing w that, all these evil things that people were saying, they helped me to not judge the ones saying it.  I had started to be able to not judge, and I w finding that it w wac people sometimes, when they said evil things to me, I feel.  I w be okay and they w be so f up.

There is no need to judge evil, it is just evil.

I’ll have to get my housing association to put a lock on my loft hatch.

I’m wondering w all this means.  It shows me that J commandments do actually work, that they may be from heaven.  So, I’m wondering w w happen if I continue to follow them; w I actually reverse my aging.

One thing Ik, is that people can’t get any more evil, they are already as evil as they’re gonna get; w gives me great relief.

Like I have to say, I feel like I’m already a kid.  This has sealed it for me.  There is no way I c spot that people are evil, unless I w one.

I suppose that that means that I have the right amount of Neurons already for the changes that I have been looking for; the theory that it makes the hedgehog pathway open, leading to youth, actual physical youth, in someone my age.

Tbh, I’m kinda grasping at straws, bc, Idk what the changes w be.  I think a more realistic one w be that, people just lose it every time they are evil towards me, it wacs them.

I mustn’t wac people tho.  Someone in my loft has taught me that.  That w bc I pulled things out my fridge in a way that wacked them, bc they were just making endless comments to me when I w in my kitchen, trying to wac me, I felt.  I felt that they were watching me the whole time.

All this has given me so much more faith.

To Leaping For Joy

K