It’s two am, I have my coffee
I w putting together a chair I bought, and the instructions had something the w w round. I unscrewed it, and I had it just right, and took ages to get it back. It’s nice tho.
In Other News
W the campaign, I have my landing page, pretty much sorted; just wanna change the color of the button and the text.
It w rly be nice to have some income for Christmas, just some figures on a screen. Idk tho, if there w be problems w my payment method.
I have my injection this morning, w means that Ima not arrange any clubs to do on a Friday. Maybe Saturday I w find something to do.
I kinda feel it a way of socking it to them, that I have a running campaign that is making money, when I have been turned down for all these jobs that I have went for. The problem is tho, is that, I want to be doing that in the week, and enjoying it; that’s w I am doing it for, the change in my lifestyle that it w lead to. Ima sit at home thinking ha ha ha, tho Ima be the one who is missing out.
It just seems the right thing to do, to get some money coming in, so Ima work on it, and try and make it work. Maybe it w be a qualification that Ima put on my CV, that w make them want me.
It’ll be nicer to be a more down to earth person than last time I did retail. I should be able to find more value in being around them, and having a good natter.
The campaign is breaking a lot of the rules of Affiliate Marketing. Should it work, it w be a great honor to me, that I had managed to smash it, in this rly authentic way, my personal brand of the profession.
I wanted to do it my own way. I said this to myself when I w starting out. There w this course run by this dude named Stew. I chose not to do it, like I say, bc I wanted to do it my own way, and not learn someone else’s way of doing it.
I felt it w be hella struggles figuring it out on my own, tho I didn’t want my creativity colored by someone else’s way of doing it.
I feel that’s what allows me to come up w this way of doing it, that rly goes against the accepted, tried and tested way of doing it. We’ll see.
It appeals to the emotions of the customer. The emotions are the draw, as opposed to heavy hitting calls to action. I feel they are more powerful, or at least as powerful.
The whole page is, are, tuned to the same emotional message, w every headline just being a reinforcement of the same emotional message, congruent w the theme of the page, each headline, adding to the depth of the emotion, and broadening the emotional connection to the product and merchant.
What they are trying to do w their products, I feel it means something, and gives the customer rl feels through appreciating the benefits of their products. It, they, makes them happy, relieved, etc, excited even. All these emotional messages, when added to each other, may have weight.
Alls I’m asking of this rly, is to increase the conversion of the deal, just beyond that of the ad, just a little, to push me into profit, so that the cost of the ads are slightly under that of the return of commissions.
The campaign is global, so any small profit, of say like ten p per ad run, w bring in massive amounts of profit; or not, depending on whether I tell myself that all this work, w I won’t. I don’t need any pain from lying to myself, and then getting schooled; been there, hurts like f’ery.
Like I say, I felt like a millionaire for some reason. I guess that’s how people treat me. This one guy thought that I w big on YouTube, I guess people have the right to perceive me any way that their consciousness kinda explains me.
This led to me feeling this way one time, bc I guess that’s how the people around me were holding space for me. It felt amazing, tho when I had left, I had to let go of it, to keep myself open to people, loving how they just pull me in emotionally and make me feel good, when I am out and about. It can be a very friendly town.
I guess I have low self esteem and w just feel so much worth from having made something work well. It w be very valuable to me, and useful to have the recognition of succeeding. I may value myself more, I suppose I w have to bc I w have the results, an undeniable truth that that had happened.
I already had a huge validation that my decisions rule, when I recovered from schizoaffective disorder, due to all the clubs and socializing that I w doing. I started them all, bc I w committed to getting better, feeling like I w in an emotional prison, where I just couldn’t reach people. I guess the more things Ima get right, the more in the right Ima feel.
I’m wholly unable to tell myself, that the way I am is bc of the environment I am from, tho the facts w speak for themselves. It just makes me susceptible to feeling that people are being rude to me, Idk why, I end up upset, if I ever think that, just doesn’t work.
I suppose it, that’s, judgement. That’s the hard thing about no judgement, it’s very strict and inflexible. I just follow it, I just do it, those are my rules and like it or not, they are w has healed me, so I stick w it, and have faith in it.
To Valuing Ourselves
K
Miss K 