It’s midnight, I have my coffee
W the Affiliate Marketing, I am still having payment issues. I have contacted help via report a problem. Idk how they w get back to me, so Ima google it; tho Ima not do it today, bc it is Sunday.
I am feeling attractive lately. Like I’ll be doing something like taking a sip from my water bottle, and I w just catch this vibe, that feels so good.
I just wanna say how much J’s commandments have done for me. Idek where to begin w that, there has been so much.
I feel that internal change is the best. Like I used to think that money w solve all my problems, I w totally missing the target. I’m all about changing the way I feel inside, that is where it’s at. Idk if I w get to the consciousness that I desire tho we’ll see. Like I say it is rly the only thing worth hoping for. G I want it so bad.
All I have to do to attain it, is follow J’s commandments. I have to put in the effort to controlling the way I think, 24/7. I have been doing this for six years. Like I say, it has changed my life so much for the better.
I w thinking about my brain map, it has dwindled. It’s not that hard for me to stop myself from judging or worrying. I felt the vibes down Ferry Meadows, even tho someone had soaked me, driving past me in their car.
I remember the feels of when I w young, just feeling like it w a utopia, at times. I w wondering how this c be true. I feel annoyed at people a lot. I feel their behavior triggering. I guess if I didn’t then that is how I w see the world. I w be able to see the best in people. People w be nicer to me bc I w being nicer to them.
That’s the truth about people, they w only show me their better side, if they don’t feel I have it out for them; that way I w just get the best of them all the time. That’s probably why it felt like a utopia.
Thinking about people, I like them the most when they make me smile. That only happens when they are feeling their best.
Like, to think that that world still exists and that it is all around me; that all I have to do is follow J’s commandments to travel back to it.
It’s funny saying how do I travel back to somewhere that is all around me, it is right where I am. That is the power of the mind, and reality, to be somewhere different when being in exactly the same place.
It’s funny how people take all these holidays hoping to feel good, when they c travel in their reality and be somewhere different when being in the same place, be feeling good there.
In Other News
Rly for me, the only motive for getting the business running, is being able to support myself. I used to want to have lots of money, like I w want about an extra six hundo a month. Like, being rich rly confuses me, like why. Why do people be f like they have to have it. I have enough. I have just enough money to get by and that is okay.
I remember being a kid. My friend got this job and it w rly poorly paid. He loved it tho. I said to him, if you love it then w do you need money for. The point of life is to be happy, if you are happy then you are there, or something like that.
I actually thought to myself whether I w w to move. If I had money w I stay here. All those years wasted judging my neighbors, so sad. G I love J.
There’s the part of me tho, the part that chronically needs self esteem. I need this business to work, bc then I get to say to myself that I have value, that is sad also.
I have the way that people value me is the point of life, that is w I live for. Should I find value in succeeding, then w I feel less value in people respecting me, it scares me, I don’t want to lose that, I always want that to be my focus, and work on strengthening it. The business kinda scares me, I don’t want to change.
Through J’s commandments, I have found w it is in life that is truly worth having; my feelings and the respect of people, to love my neighbor as myself as J commands.
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Miss K 