Hey

It’s midnight, I have my coffee

Idk if my forward slashes, are the wrong way round, on my link; I’ll have to check.  Omg, I found my landing page, it w right where I left it.

I also have to change my brand, from Miss K, to Krystal.

I’m thinking that my landing page might be so good, that people want more.  Maybe if I have a second page on my website.

Like presence is all I need.  All I need is the feeling that presence brings; it stops all worries just from being in that zone.  I don’t need to worry about w my financial situation is, bc I just feel okay, and don’t c.  I don’t need to worry about where I’m living, bc I feel fine and don’t c.  It solves all problems.

It’s rly slam in an ad, and go.

Idk what a good click through rate is, for an Insta, Idc.  I thought about it, and then just rejected the idea.

I had this zhè in my awareness.  It w the realization, that the consciousness that I want, is underneath judgement.  It’s kinda gotten to by presence, and that all thought is kinda judgement.  Faith, that I absolutely w get there, from trying harder to not judge.

Not judging made me super uncomfortable to start w.  I thought that I w lose my awareness.  Actually the opposite happened, and now I am in the awareness I need; just wanna go deeper.  Can’t even begin to explain w a good thing it w following these commandments.  I feel so lucky that I did.

That kids are kids, bc they don’t judge.

I actually k now, that I w get to that awareness, through following the commandments; and I just believe, that my hedgehog pathway w be triggered, when I do, hopefully; and then my Yamanaka genes, maybe.  I’m actually open to it now.

I mustn’t tell myself that this definitely is gonna work, tho I feel the science behind it is solid; kinda.

C J’s commandments, just be engineered, to make a person younger.  Ik that the main focus is righteousness, tho c this rly be the point.  Alls J wants is to stop people getting old?

And w if, it, they, work.  W if it does actually do w I said; and do that.  W if these two thousand year old commandments actually stop aging, w then.  Does it lend itself to believing that J was actually an angel from heaven; how else c he k, in a time, when there w no science to back it up.

Mary w a virgin, is this significant; and where did the body go.  Ima cross that bridge when I come to it, and face the reality of whether this is all true, at that time.  I remember being young, and having so much faith in J.  It stands to reason that should I enter that consciousness, again, all that faith w come back and it’s just a mash, taking that faith, and then adding that J w actually correct.

Plus no one listened for two thousand years.  Which does kinda make us all sound evil, like he says.

Evil, just being what, ignorant.

It’s such a mash, Ima leave that sh alone.  Like there is a time and a place for that, when I have gotten myself to kid consciousness, like I say; it’s f me up, Ima stop.  I mustn’t tell myself that it’s gonna work, just follow it.  What I w say tho, is that, the closer I get, the more real it seems.

I never functioned this well, my whole life.  My memory w shot.  This is totally new to me, and I have to learn to be young again, w that difference present.  It’s a new me.  It feels weird to have good self esteem, kinda; and at times feel less worthy.

I thought that money w give me self esteem, wrong.  It only comes from one place, and like I say, I’m so lucky to have found it.  If only I c explain how this feels.  I honestly feel like I have regressed back to my twenties.  This is no small thing, being fifty one.  Youth is everything to me.  It is all that matters to me.  Feeling young again, made me realize that.

Now I want more.  I absolutely have to go younger.   I have to feel even more this way.  Alls it has done has helped me.  It blows my mind.  I get the word righteousness.  This is it, this is righteousness, it’s just right.  Knowing w is right, knowing w is righteous, I just continue w this.  Idk what else to say.

I w thinking.. a prophet, has no honor in their own town and in their own home.  So I’m not a prophet; then w am I.  The bible does not say w it is, when moving past the point of being a prophet.

I guess no prophet has ever shown the world that it is possible to reset to youth.  Idc.  Like I say, I must not believe that that w definitely happen; tho that is my goal, my North Star.  I might not k what it is called, tho Ik the energy of feeling the way I do.  Ik the change in my internal state, due to fw all this.  Ik the energy of w I am doing.  That tells me everything I need to k.  Like I say, presence trumps any kind of thought, that c possibly be contrived around anything.  That’s a good word, contrived, that is w a reality based on thought is.  It’s made up.

I should love to lead people out of this contrived reality, onto something more tangible; show them that there is more, than they are experiencing.  Do they c, Idk.

Should it only be me, that enters this reality, wouldn’t that be incredibly lonely.  W there be others.

And yet I continue on this, doing this, and I don’t run into any problems.  Yes I broke my leg, tho I threw my pearls to swine.  It’s like reality allows me to get deeper and deeper into this, becoming more and more in this reality.  Like reality welcomes this, me.  It’s like reality wills me to step more and more into this.

To Righteousness

K