Hey

It’s three am, I have my coffee

I have to let go of, putting out a campaign, before Christmas; and just try to.

I have to open a new Facebook account, and link it to my Insta; so that when I get help, I am actually able to follow the link.  This w mean that I don’t use up, w c be my only help credit.

I swear that when making an ad, it allows me to not use a Facebook page, if I scroll down.  I have to find this also.

My emotions are rly coming though, and a lot of the time, I am able to think that people are not talking about me.  I felt that a guy w, yesterday, tho I w able to stay happy and bask in the nobility of feeling hurt and that being okay.  Tho, like I say, I am getting stronger around it.

I am also getting stronger around the business, and when I am not able to do something.  This has been super helpful lately, w so many things not working out and struggling to run, w should be an ultra simple ad.

All these blocks from the universe, just tells me that I am close to something that is working.  It is my belief now for many years, that when close to something valuable, the universe blocks it for whatever reason.  W such a strong block, it is just making me wonder; actually seeing this as a positive thing.

I love my landing page, so much.  I w looking at it, when I w putting in the link, and just setting up the mobile version; shifting text around and changing size.  It w such a nice experience, just having that page in front of me; the vibes coming off it, felt on point.

It’s kinda frustrating in light of this, that I can’t just run the f out of it, and see whether it does anything good.  So close to Christmas, also, w boost the profit margin as well.

It’s rly weird, feeling more and more of my emotions; just being sucked more and more into reality; like when around people, walking through the mall or whatever.

Especially when in a group of people.  It’s totally not taking for granted, that they vibe w me and let me in and accept me.  Everyone says hello to me and is super supportive.  Our customs of being nice to each other, mean so much.  It just reinforces that empathy and respect.

There w be a lack of groups, around Christmas, w w be lonely.  Ima just take the time to.. Idk, just get in touch w myself, and filter out all the noise that is other people, that influences me from being my true self.

Tbh, there should be tons of rly good stuff on TV, as I remember there being when I w a kid.  That is the one thing that I noticed about Christmas, is is that there w so much good stuff on TV.

Nowadays, it’s a little different.  I don’t actually have TV, just Netflix and Amazon Prime; that w be interesting.  Hopefully they w have a Christmas list.

In Other News

I w wondering, if I w on the wrong music platform.  I’ve heard some stuff on Spotify, that just sounds so much more better.  I don’t feel that I’m getting w I need from my The Hits playlist.  Idk.

I may even walk all the way to Ferry Meadows, on Christmas day.  I remember one time I went walking, last year.  It w so nice, saying hello to everyone; the vibes.  It c be well worth it.  Maybe I’ll get a taxi back.

Something like that, lifts my energy so much, w a difference it can make when people are nice; to my mood, pulling me out of whatever I’m feeling.

It’s definitely a portal, back out, back from, a trigger, these doorways allow travel in vibes, to get back to something much better.

I remember one time, when I first noticed these portals.  I w getting triggered, horribly so often, and used to try and use them to get back; having faith that one w come along at the right time.  Sometimes it worked, and sometimes it didn’t.

Something incredible has happened tho.  When triggered, I still feel attractive, w is a huge turnaround, from days gone by.  So much has changed in me, all brought about by following J’s commandments.

It kinda boggles my mind, that some people have never had anxiety.  When I w a kid, I feel I w dissociated my whole youth, tho I only had a feeling of just not being in reality, like one time.

I remember it clearly, it lasted about one day.  I w scared that it w not go away, tho didn’t worry about it, and I w back to normal soon; so much relief tho, at it returning.

W the business, I tend to do just one thing; then watch a YouTube video, then return to it.  I have been blocked so harshly, and this allows me to calm down, and feel my feelings again.

I guess this is true computer literacy, being able to handle things when they are not working.  Ima imagine being in a classroom, and being told to just have a break and come back to it; just like when an exam question stumps me.

I have to wonder.. if people are able to not be anxious, bc they have strong boundaries, and judge everyone.  For me, I seem to be in the same space, tho got there, by just increasing my number of neurons, changing my reality to something sufficient for me to be able to feel my feelings.  Two realities, existing together and interacting like there is no difference between us.

Ik that my reality works; that I have much less anxiety, bc of entering it, strengthening it, and embodying it fully.  I hope it w lead to youth.

It should be super weird, to be able to function just the same as a kid; have that confidence in being able to do just about anything.

To Freedom From Anxiety

K