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Happy New Year; It’s 2026, I have my coffee

I feel that this year is going to be a much better year, than other years.

I’m rly getting into not judging people.  I kinda always used to think that they were up to something, and that w give me anxiety.  Sometimes people are nervous around me.  I used to, like I say, feel that they had some kinda ulterior motive, like they were judging me or something dark.  I’ve managed to not question w it is, and that kinda.. it stops them from getting even more anxious.  It w kinda building between us, and w leave me in a bit of a mess.

That’s why it’s so important not to do it, as it w affecting my mood, and my confidence.  It’s hard to be confident around people, when I secretly hate them.

That’s a lot tho; it’s rly just like when I’m walking down the street, and I feel that someone is like looking at me funny.  It enables me to not feel that it is this or that, and somehow it makes it go away, in them and in me.

I still feel that people are posing like f; and that w do me massive psychological damage, if I w around it for more than a few seconds.  Idk why people do this, and it hurts to think that I am so vulnerable to other peoples’ body language.  It makes me feel so damaged, tbh.

In Other News

I haven’t looked at the campaign; I don’t want to.  Like, if I’m not telling myself that it’s gonna work, w w I even take a peek at it.  I looked at the numbers, and it w mean that my landing page w have to be increasing the selling rate, by even a little, and Idk whether it’s gonna do that.

I have broken all the rules to, of, affiliate marketing.  Everything that is taught says, that it won’t work.  Obs if it does, then it’s a huge win for listening to my zhé inside.  It w kinda make me feel that the other creative things that I wanna do, are worth persuing.

I feel that the whole thing is crazy, and just don’t wanna think about it; Ima not touch it w a ten foot barge pole.

At this point, I’m totally thinking about throwing the whole thing out, and doing a happy new year, themed page.  It w only be hot for like a few days, tho c rly sell.  I w have to turn up my ad spend, tho Idk if I’m able to do that w|o trashing the campaign.

Should I desire to do this, I w have to get in touch w my inner dopeness.  I feel that people a be seeing w is dope.  Like they k when they see dopeness, and respond well to it.  Ijdk whether I am dope enough, do I have enough dopeness to be able to speak to them like that.

I definitely have dopeness at times, tho Idk whether Ima just pull it out when I need it.

The page w have to be the vibes of the new year.  It’s an emotional way of selling and they w somehow need to tie into the product and how it c improve the year.

People want that; they want to be able to kinda worship the new year and feel that it w be something special, maybe I c help them to do that.

I guess this is kinda how it has to be done; to keep creating, keep changing things, to keep the campaign running.  I don’t mind dipping into my creativity every now and then, and trying to woo the customer, it is something that I rly enjoy.

This also breaks the rules of Affiliate Marketing.  W this game, I am supposed to just run the campaign unpolished and unperfected and just get it the f out there.  It w be against all that to keep perfecting it and polishing it, every while.

There has to be data that comes in, and tells the publisher whether things are working or not, and that is w they use to get the edge.

Ima not do that I feel, and just keep posting and updating to get in touch w that inner dopeness that appeals to the customer.  That is w sells, I feel.

No data, no drama.

I’m just a soul, crying out to be dope, and get to express dopeness through my art.  Maybe it w work, maybe it won’t, tho there is a fire burning w|i me, urging me to try.

I feel the vibe of peoples’ hearts has changed, and I must change w it.

Kodee is rly good, she w tell me how to ad a new page to my site.  Ima not think about how to find an image, that’s something that I only do at the actual crunch time.  How Ima give the present moment my full attention, while being distracted w something like that.

Idk what Ima commit to here, w I go through w it.

To Perpetual Creativity

K