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It’s midnight, I have my CBD and coffee

I have been in the worst pain of my life w my tooth; off and on all yesterday.  I booked a dentist for today.  I must wait for my coffee to cool.

I have four days, before Ima try and work towards running my ad.  I must make sure that I enable background app refresh, so that my payment method goes through.

I have decided to do it on the Insta app.  I had the choice of doing it on browser tho chose not to.  As I haven’t tried it before, I don’t wanna go there.

Again; the issue w that there is no background app refresh on Zoomable.  It w such a great app, tho it rly let me down.  My biggest challenge so far.

There had always been help pages to help me get things sorted; tho w the trident of Insta, Facebook, and Meta, I didn’t know how to access the help.

I took it slow, over a couple of months, trying this and that.  This helped a lot.  I had been down rabbit holes before and k how easily this w done.

In Other News

I felt more vibes.  I w going past an old school, and I felt like feelings there, the same as I used to feel when I w actually in the school next door.

It got me to thinking that, not only is the world still here, that I remember back then; the exact feelings are also, even tho the world has changed since then.  To spell it out, that it w feel exactly the same for a kid nowadays, as it felt back then.

This shocked the bjeesus out of me, and w a take-home that rly w of value.

Ik that in this journey, I w ebbing closer and closer to the reality that I wanted, the whole time, that I w fw not worrying and not judging etc.  inch by inch, ever closer; and that it felt like getting there w just an eventuality, a dead cert.

W by extension, means that I w be feeling these feelings in full.  I w be feeling the exact feelings that I felt back then, tho in the nowadays world.  Tho there’s nothing like the C4 Corvette, Ima stick to my guns on that one.

Ik now, that this is totally why J says, jump for joy, bc great is your reward in heaven.  This is the reward that he speaks of.

Let people talk their evil, bring it the f on, let’s get this over w done and dusted, Ima just climb the f into that reality and have a kip.

It w absolutely require me to have twice the neurons that I had six years ago, maybe even a few more as I w well over forty.

Has nobody ever asked the question, what does it take to be able to feel the reality of a kid, like w psychological changes and neural changes w be required; no I rather think they haven’t.

Ima only speak from experience bc anything else is judgement, tho I felt that the world had gone to rack and ruin.  I felt that the genetic code of the human, had got so degraded over time, bc of the lack of natural selection, that humans had basically turned to sh; and were evil nowadays.  I held that kids were the scum of the Earth; at my worst phase; quite a turnaround.

Like, I w okay in my reality, and fw a lot of sh on YouTube that w kids in their twenties, tho Ima, fingers crossed feel the exact same vibes as when I remember being fully sane, I feel.  Holy sh.  De-fribulate my noggin, this is a lot.

Must remember to not tell my dad to f off, when he tells me to stop swearing; it’s gonna be different this time.

I’ve got to say it, Ima be around kids in their twenties and be the sanest one in the room, that’s a total mash, I feel.

Holy sh, this is getting real af, around the prospect of me actually being a kid, and having to hold it down; how w people react, w I be safe.

It’s only bc I’ve been studying genetics, that Ik that I w totally revert to the age of twelve, in the way I look; w that draw attention to me, Ima not think about it, that’ll mess me up.  Idc tho, this is right up my street.

Lets run through this one more time.  Kid reality, then having twice the neurons.  How c I be stupid enough to think that that’ll happen that way round, one after the other; it’s obs gonna happen at the same time, w means that my brain is pretty much atm, full as f’ery of neurons, and that is why my body movements have changed, and become responsive as a gamer w low latency.

Holy sh, w if it all happens at the same time.  The list is kid reality, full neurons, hedgehog pathway open and Yamanaka genes triggered.

That w explain w has been happening to my hair and why I’m not as haggard as a witch in a panto; anymore.  This is a rush.

To Twelve, True Reality, I feel

K