Hey

It’s midnight, I have my CBD and coffee

I had this experience where people were saying a lot of stuff.

The commandments of when people say all kinds of evil.  Ima just not judge w they are like.

It went on for like two hours; everyone around me making comments towards me.

I had thought that I w crazy and that I had imagined it.  I thought that it w part of the schizophrenia.

I went back and thought about all the times that I heard it.

In Other News

I got my card in the post, Ima post Insta ads.  They called me again, tho I don’t wanna speak to them.

There’s a difference between Insta ads and Google, I feel; w is that I don’t need to install tracking on my landing page.  This means that I don’t actually need to talk to one of them.

I remember that all my voices stopped, when I kinda stood up to the people saying it; like dead, like instant; tho they carried on shortly afterwards and got hella crazy.  I felt they were devaluing the f out of me.

I heard someone have a go at someone for being w someone and not f.  It feels like.. it feels like people feel this is the most important thing, and that some people feel that, to be that way is the worst.

It feels like I am waking up to the world for the first time; that all this is going on, and I have not been aware of it all my life.

Then I w back to those single words that people slip into stuff and felt like it w done into all media.  I thought I had imagined this also, and like I say, that it w part of my schizophrenia.

I feel this is not judging.  It has allowed me to be aware of all this; the only way to be hearing it w|o getting angry at them

Also

I had two people try and get w me in one day; f it, it w the whole room who wanted to do me right then and there.  It w crazy.

It’s a lot

I guess Ik how they feel now.  I’m shocked.

Things were a lot better this time.  When I got home, I chilled, bc I never talked to myself about it.  I had found it better when I just closed my lips and never let any words out; just thought in my head.

It kinda shocks me that this is going on all the time, whether I am aware of it or not; that Ima leave my home, and rly expect to hear it.

It comes w a huge upside; the way I feel.  I w on the bus, feeling all my feelings while all this w happening.  It made me realize that I am absolutely feeling everything I need to.

Better late than never.

And

W my tooth, I’ve got an appointment soon to have it out.  I w given some antibiotics.  They should help w the pain.

It all makes sense.  That’s w they are like.

My question is, are there any, who k all this, tho don’t fw it.

I think I saw two yesterday, tho they are super rare, I feel.

I’ve got to link my Facebook account, and then intall Insta, and allow background app refresh.

I’m thinking, w w Ik about people, w it appeal to them.

To Awareness

K