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It’s midnight, I have my CBD and coffee

I’m trying to have less painkillers, now that I have been on the antibiotics for a while.  It’s getting ripped out, Tue after next.

This girl said, did you see that.  From the way she said it, it sounded like she had said, she’s cumming, did you see that; as I w walking through Queensgate.

I had been listening to Flow Rider.  I had always wondered w had happened to him; straight pancakes; I guess he broke up w his wife.

He also said, vision w no feeling.  Yk, I swear that too much information is coming at me.  Music can be like that at times.

Idc about the business.  I feel that the best thing that happened to me, w that, I had got my payment method blocked and I couldn’t run any ads.

Tony Robbins said that, people overestimate w they can do in a year, and underestimate w they can do in ten years.

I just don’t give a f.  My energy has risen like a soufflé.

I have to accept, kinda reluctantly, that these commandments actually work.  I suppose this should mean that I got life figured out; I don’t.

I feel that I w get younger.  I have no fears around that.  I also feel that it is the end of the age of Kali Yuga, w w mean that everyone w be living longer.  I am actually wondering, w the f, that, maybe I bring about the change that catalyses that.

I realized that if one person does it, then the whole world and his dog, w be doing it; there no getting round that.

J says that he talks in parables, so that tho hearing they do not understand.  Well if one person becomes immortal, w I feel that I already am, then well, that’s gonna just motivate people to follow this sh like f, until they have it down.

It’s understanding things that just zhuzhes me up; there’s so much funky stuff going on in my head, and when someone speaks, it just puts more stuff in.

I guess I just become so much more like them, w every thing that they say; and they think that I am their f leader, I feel; who the f is leading who.

Either lead or follow, or get out of the way; I just wanna get out of the way.

When I w young I didn’t k sh.  I w as dumb as a post; and the funny thing is is that, there is no need to k anything, I feel.

Like kids.  Adults think that they are all computer geniuses, and that, they k how to launch rockets into space.. say a kid doesn’t k how to.. can’t think of an example here, like run some kinda software.. they don’t give a f, why w they.  Kids aren’t born computer literate.

Like all this sh Ik, I don’t need to k.

Talking of computer literate, I’m finding software easier to run.  I’m starting to read the stuff that comes up on the screen that I used to just click away; it helps.  Insta just feels different now; it feels more friendly.

I thought about just posting the image for my ad, w|o any text; to people who w be interested in w I’m offering.

Curiosity is a psychological trigger; it c work.  Plus is looks like a post and not an ad.  Maybe I am onto something w that; like people w be more likely to click on something if they thought that it w a dope post.

I guess that leveling up is always gonna bring the haters; it’s a conundrum.  That’s the thing w J’s commandments, that’s why no one can get past it, into immortality, I feel.  It’s just that the pressure from people, just feels too much.

It’s made me a baddie tho, ngl.  People just spill, everywhere I go; Ik where all the bodies are buried.

That thing that Flo said; I just w always confused, by w made people wanna have sex; like comparing that to w I have.  I guess now I feel that it wouldn’t add anything to my reality, actually w take the one thing away that I value, feeling.

That’s why I continued w this down the line; I wanted that feeling that I had when I w young.  I wanted nothing else, nothing material, nothing.  Now I have it.  Ima not deny any longer that I feel some kinda way, that only is possible to gotten, through following these commandments.  I feel that no other adult feels the way I do, and never will.  It’s kinda sad and disturbing.

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