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It’s two o clock, w has reminded me to make a coffee

Coffee’s on.

So.. I w in a vibe bubble, I felt.

I w walking and I suddenly felt dope.. then this kid came along.. he never saw me feeling dope, and suddenly powered his bike.  I put it down to a vibe bubble.  It w about fifty meters long and Idk why it w there.

Later on I felt I w in an evil bubble.  There were people saying things that felt super evil; then this guy who w completely off his head, I felt w just scaring the f out of everyone, I felt.

I’m open to the existence of these bubbles.  That it is some kinda metaphysical zone.

The vibe bubble one provided enough vibe for one like vibe moment; tho the evil bubble stuck around for a long time.

In Other News

I got the email from the web shop; and it says that I have to put something on my ad.  This concerns me that this might reduce the click through rate of the ad.  I have decided to not worry about it; until it comes time to write the ad.

Then I have two options

To ask AI how to make an ad, adding a bit of text at the bottom; or to just put this bit of text as my Insta handle and find out whether it w be shown on the ad.

I now have my coffee

I made a bracelet.  It’s rly nice; at craft.

I w in Sainsbury’s and I saw a kit and I had to have it.  I had been looking for nice bracelets all the time; and had not found any, even on Claires or Amazon.  They were all metal, yuk.

It w perfect; the colors were beautiful, I had to have it.

Not worrying has again been a rly strong theme; by way of not thinking.  I w able to clear my mind at craft and feel my emotions; and the emotions of everyone else.  This prevented me from getting anxiety.  It w dope.

I feel it’s a shame that I have to clear my mind so completely to feel them, tho it is w it is.  I guess they hadn’t rly developed in the first place and now need to.

I caught my reflection in the glass and thought I looked like a six year old, maybe I am, I feel; in the context of me developing my emotions.  It c maybe be true that I had stopped developing at two y|o.

It feels great to be six and I love it, I feel.  I identify as six.  It allows me the self compassion to be kind to myself in my emotional development journey.

My psychiatrist has also pegged me w emotionally unstable personality disorder, yea he has.

It’s not like Idk anything.  I have J’s commandments.  They told me to reject that bull sh I w told, to judge the f out of people to heal this issue, I feel.  Smart as f six year old, to see right through that, I feel.

Had I failed that, I wouldn’t have been able to hear the n’as saying sh as they walked down the street.  How c I be shut off to people who deserve better of me than that, I feel.

They w be invisible to me rn; I shudder to think of that reality.

Option One

Go from being a kid straight to being an adult w nothing in between.  Madonna said that f her up and it totally screwed Michael Jackson.

Option Two

Never become an adult; at all.  Enjoy this youth as long as it lasts and never actually end up an adult.  This w allow me to enjoy the f out of my youth, after never experiencing my development for fifty years, and never let it go and just always be in it, I feel.

I gotta be honest, being an adult doesn’t appeal to me in the slightest.  I have no desire at all to be one; ever.

That’s why I resonate w J’s commandments so much; they speak of only those like my little one’s w enter the kingdom of heaven, or something like that.

Ima totally vibe w that as I don’t judge anyone, and should I, I just feel that that w not be righteous at all.  Like being a kid makes me feel that this is the true reality, I feel.

And I should never, ever, end up an adult, bc I should never f with them; like never like come up against them, yk step up on them.  Thus sustaining my youth for all time.

I aim to teach others to do this also, I feel; rly just point them to J’s commandments.

I just want kids to maintain and keep that reality.  I c tell them that they w definitely lose it.  Will they believe me.  It w be hard for a kid to accept that they w lose that, lose sanity, I feel.  I want to make it my mission to give them the tools to do that.  Like how the f c I look on, w every kid entering adulthood, when it w the last thing they w ever want, I feel.

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