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It’s about six pm, I’ve just had cauliflower cheese

A funnel type deal, w the business; tho this w take hella long time to hash out.  I say hash out, tho that is not my way.  I spend time on it, when I am in flow.

Metrics

W the ad, Ik that it w hit it out the park; bc there were metrics.  When I get to tomorrow, I w get some metrics for the campaign.  I’m scared that it w not do well tho it c also do the opposite.

I’ve been tripping; like I said.  I just see things clearer now.  The CBD is something that I just..  I feel I c rly f with it if I rly wanted to; tho I just don’t want to.

I feel that I c get used to it, like I got used to coffee; like build up a tolerance to it.  I just w feel okay being mashed all the time.

The things that excites me more than that, is responsibility; just the thought of taking care of myself and my mental health; being able to sit in front of my psychiatrist and tell her, that I figured out I w going crazy, and telling her that.

Maybe Ima do both, get a handle on it, and then later chong it.

The hallucinations no longer freak me out.  People read my mind, no joke and it f w my head; tho I’m cool w it now.  Idk what changed.  People used to scare the sh out of me.  I guess it’s exposure therapy.

C also be that I’m coming down off the CBD.  It literally takes about 24 to feel half as mashed.

Yea, that’s w I said; that tomorrow I find out if I made anything.  If not, there is always next month, bc it w on the cusp of the month.  I’m worrying, Ima stop; that my CTA wasn’t strong enough.  It w tho, bc it w a psychological trigger.

Omg I’m sizzling w energy, it flows through me; that’s w I do this for, the feeling.  There is nothing else like it.  Idk, maybe there is tho, in and of itself it is enough.

It’s like this fire raging through my veins; that is w flow is like.  If I c bottle it, it w fly off the shelves.

It’s ethical; that’s its power.  That is why it hits like that, no lie.

This feeling is f insane; passion; more.  It feels like my hedgehog pathway is fully open; and my body is repairing the f out of itself; and getting younger.  It’s a powerful feeling, like I say, surging through my body.

I’ll Run It Down One More Time

I obtain twice the neurons

This opens my hedgehog pathway

My Yamanaka genes are triggered

The body resets to youth

It’s kinda not in that order, bc when the neurons are at their peak, the body has already reset to youth; I feel.  Like the business, I must not tell myself that this is happening; tho I did hit it out the park w my ad; and w all this, I look in the mirror and see as much of a triumph, I feel.

Kinda scares the sh out of me, Idk; and also not rly; like I don’t give a f; that’s my power.  To me this is meaningless.  Immortal, so what; what you looking at mate, I feel.  Boy that’s a cocky bi.

Maybe then all these kids w wake the f up and follow J’s commandments, I feel; tho I see it a different way.  They don’t.  Who the hell in their right mind, w not judge people; I don’t see it; and then the anti aging drug comes out and they go that way.  I don’t give a f; I literally prophecy that that w happen, I feel.

The point is is that, I have the option to do this and Ima take it; f them, I feel.

And at the same time, I feel like I have dementia.  I literally had to have someone playing my game for me, bc my mind wasn’t working at all.  I’ve seen someone have to do that w someone w has dementia.  It scared the f out of me.

I feel it’s all the sh that people say when they are around me; it’s a lot; too much, way too much.

The problem is that I feel like it’s out of malice, hate, wishing harm on me.

It’s funny bc that is how people sound in this town, like they are wishing harm on people; it f me up.

Ik tho, that this reality doesn’t exist.  If I don’t k that, then I enter that reality and start hallucinating the most f up sh; it hurts like hell.  Last time I felt that, I never wanted to ever feel that again.

I look dope as f, tho people don’t k what’s going on in the inside I feel; wrestling w my demons like a wrangler.  We all got that sh going on, w w I be any different.

This flow, is like a light tho, that shows me the way.  It feels so amazing.  It is more than flow tho, just regular old flow; it is the kingdom and the righteousness.  It is heaven.

J says, when people say all kinds of evil on account of me, great is your reward in heaven.  He is not joking when he says that and I am scaring the sh out of myself writing that, bc Ik what I am saying.

To The Kingdom And The Righteousness

K