It’s three thirty am
I checked my link, and found out that it w broken. I have fixed it and am running a little campaign.
I tried to run it in the UK, tho no one clicked on it. This actually kinda shocked me; like how c people be so different. How c something have such a crazy click through rate, and in another country, nothing.
I’m trying hard not to judge. I just have these feelings towards people. I feel like I’ve been taken advantage of, and it’s a challenge.
I must stand up for myself and not let them get away w that. I mustn’t judge them tho bc my boundaries are so poor.
This is rly important. J’s commandments say to not throw my pearls to swine; that’s a rly important commandments and I must succeed at this. I failed at it before and I broke my leg.
I Gemini’d whether it w likely that my landing page c make zero. It told me that that w unlikely. Having seen how my ad performed tho I feel that it w still be possible that I get no customers. The thing is is that it’s not good to assume that tho, bc I c be wrong. I must try it; be open to it being a problem, tho give it a shot.
I took a day off, bc I had realized that I had no customers and I needed to take time for myself so that I didn’t worry about it. I’m just spending a small amount of money on a campaign. I have to only spend w I have or I w run into problems. Luckily tho Ima afford it rn. This means that there is a possibility that I find out that I do get customers from my marketing system.
I w then k that Ima turn it up all the way and then I w be able to financially support myself. It’s huge. This little tester campaign means a lot to me.
Again tho, I must not tell myself that this w work. Shining example: well this went wrong didn’t it. I had a killer ad, and no customers so there is always the chance that something c go wrong, no matter how confident I feel.
It’s quite a tasty coincidence tho that my link w broken and that I got zero customers; tho like I say, I must not say that. That’s why it’s so important for me to run it and see.
I did a twenty four hour campaign so that Ima find out quick. That’s got me rly excited actually; kinda
I’m not allowed to tell myself that the reason I have problems w my boundaries is bc of abuse; it c be tho. It just doesn’t work for me, ever saying that it w abuse. I have like a focus of w c have been abuse, tho; literally my whole life, how I w brought up and everything, I feel.
Luckily I have been around some people for like the last year and have been finding out w people are like and that Ima trust them. It has done me a lot of good. In fact I feel that it cured my schizophrenia; something has.
I realized how important it w for me to not judge. I just felt that if I judged anyone then I w be a fool; bc I w miss out on them supporting me. Someone supported me recently, in a difficult situation, and I just said to myself that Ima never judge that kinda person; and in fact they were the dope one. It brought a lot to me about not judging people.
I’m lucky that I have been doing this for such a long time. It has shown me the people that I had previously judged in a different light, and made me feel something for them. Ima not stress, I love how this feels inside; how much I love J for showing me this.
I hallucinated that brain surgeons call it a bubble when someone has surgery. I felt that this meant that people were closed off and that w w this happened. It w super freaky tho c it be right, I feel. I c literally be saving myself from cancer by not judging people, I feel.
It’s about trust rly. My distrust for people, leads me to think that they w try and manipulate me. That’s one thing, tho I don’t feel they w do it should I show them my boundaries. I feel they w totally respect them. Idk why I feel so scared tho I must work through it. That’s one thing that I feel not judging is doing for me.
It does me a lot of good, bc I feel that Ik how far they w go. It’s about knowing people; side effect, I become more of a hardnut.
To Not Judging
K
Miss K 