Hey

It’s five thirty pm, I’ve had coffee

Whore, Amazon, he says as he rings the bell.

I w in a bit of a mash for a bit, ngl.

I came to realise, that these mashes were super important.  They w w gave me my self esteem.  Ik it’s hard to accept this, Gk I’ve tried for years to deny it.

These are my people; they are the right people for me, for better or worse.

I thought all people were evil, that’s why it w such a mash; and for all intents and purposes, they are.

And

I’ve got addicted to these mashes.  Idk what the f is w w me.

In Other News

I have a running ad.

I have been good, at just doing one thing and then forgetting about w needs to be done next.  It’s quite a challenge.

Like I’ve explained before; I w take one stab at it, and then leave it twenty five minutes and then take the next step.  This is w I did today, to get the ad up.

I had to AI.. how the thing worked; and then it w just to link my image asset, to the campaign or ad group; w I had already done, so I w pretty happy about it.

Ad took like five minutes to get up.  I had found out that.. all the other stuff, like my keywords and everything else w already set up.

And there is it, a running ad.  This is the whole marketing machine working, and who k, maybe it w bring in a quid or two.

I’ve got my eye on the MacBook Neo; tho I rly haven’t, bc I want to get the iPad Neo, when it comes out in September; I have a hunch.

This made me fall in love w Apple, all over again; and take me back to 2011, when I had my tricked out MacBook Air.

It’s all about what Ima do to watch ASMR in bed.  The only way that w work, is if it is a pad.  I like to tilt it at an angle, that Ima just not get from a MacBook.  Fingers crossed.

Idk what the f I’m doing w my life; I have just got addicted to not worrying and just don’t give a f.  It’s totally the right answer.

There’s the question of money; and luckily I w not have any for the foreseeable.  Just enough to get the things I have been dreaming of, while poor as sh.

Funny thing is now, that I don’t long for expensive clothes anymore, so rly don’t k what to spend it on; probably stupid sh like getting breakfast.

I’ll still want to walk into Town.  It gives me the exercise that I need.

My focus has to be, not worrying, like I figured out yesterday; actually not thinking, it is the only way not to judge people.  I just shut my mind the f down, terrified that people w just f lynch me.

Tho

I realised that if I deem them to be dangerous, then I am the one who is; kinda scary sh.

And also, if I deem all men to be pervs, then that makes me one too, bc internally, I hold that they all want it.  Sounds like a f creep to me.

To Learning All This Sh About Myself

K