Hey

It’s two pm, I’m having coffee in a bit

It’s lovely and sunny; might be a frost tomorrow.

I’m rly leaning into not worrying.  There’s been so many occasions, where it just helped so much; today.

I kinda got to thinking that that, this is, the culmination of J’s commandments.

There’s been a couple of times, where I’ve asked myself, is this ethical, being so chill rn.

I realise that there is only one way to be chill; to be a kid again.

Yk, what never gets old, is that I’m getting closer and closer; the distance consistently narrowing.

I feel pretty chill that carrying on this path w just lead to where I wanna go.

I w super chill today.  Someone w carrying something that looked super dodgy; and I w just not break my spell of not thinking.

I mean it seems to solve all the commandments; just not thinking.  I don’t have to worry about what commandment to follow, bc worry is against J’s commandments

I suppose that this, just clears up any discrepancy of not knowing which takes priority.

I definitely feel younger.

I had the experience, where I had the choice to choose whether I hold that people are evil.  I thought that it w be judgement and to just not think about it.

Judgement is just pondering the qualities of a person.

It’s not rly till, five years later, and I just realise that these commandments are absolute fact, I feel.

It took a hot minute to realise w w w w judging people.  It w just have not done anything for me.  I w be right where I w, like five years ago; I feel.

I w thinking about immortality.  I look younger in the mirror; hella; and my hair is actually turning black, a colour it has never been, except when I w born.

I thought maybe it’s the Calcium AlphaKetoGlutarate.  It should rightly knock about fifteen years off my life I feel, putting me at what I feel like when I look in the mirror.

One thing Idk.  I love this sh so much; even when it’s a challenge bc people are all being themselves, speaking all kinds of things.

The way I frame it is.. what a small price for immortality, I feel.

I look back at the last five years, and realise that, had I not dealt w the things people did, like I said, I w be the same person still.  There’s no question; of whether it is worth it.

In Other News

I changed the landing page; a little bit.  Just seemed the right thing to do.

This gave me an energy that w kinda unparalleled.  It w like walking through london, right here in Town; for a little bit.

It kinda feels like things are gonna work, tho reasoning around it w be judgement.  It’s like energy tells me w I need to k, w the brainmap for judgement totally shut down.

To Not Judging

K