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It’s one pm, I had an energy drink

I woke up last night and maybe I wasn’t breathing.  I tried to breathe, and my soul w not connected to my body.  Unperturbed, I went back to sleep.  When I woke, I remembered w happened.

Today w such vibes.  Ferry Meadows; it w rly on the way back that I started to feel stuff.

It w super windy today, w the sun out.  They kinda cancelled each other out.  I swung by ALDI on the way back, to get the sausage rolls that I like.

Coming down in dosage is going rly well.  I wanted and want to do this in the spring.  It is best to do it now; for like more chance of it working.

I have not been hallucinating as I’ve been watching TV.  This is a change since last time.  I’m also not on Ginseng and CBD; w well c have tipped me over by causing me to worry about things.  I w able to not worry that I w challenged w people just being so psychopathic, I feel, just insulting those around them.  I didn’t worry that it w hurt my shot at making this work.

I’m pretty surprised that it is working; tbh.  Tho Ima not look a gift horse in the mouth.  I found it difficult going against w my psychiatrist wanted, tho I w just so chill that making that choice didn’t even bother me.

I’ve got two pages done, on the business now; just the third to write.  I’ve got some ideas.  It’s proved more challenging than just making real the page in my head.  There are images to consider; w they w be, the prompt for them.

I go for a six keyword prompt.  This gives me the quality of image that converts; Idk why; I feel.

I guess those that have more words just are wishy washing and have no pop.  It’s rly having the confidence that AI has the ability to fill in the blanks; better than I ever could.  It’s w I don’t write, that it takes, and makes special.

I’m using one image for all my images; to keep consistent.  She may stay w me even further down the line of my brand, like an Avatar.  I’ll have to keep that original image safe.

AI is super dope, I have lots of images for my needs.  Ima try the prompt out on Gemini and then hit Chat w it.

I’ve had to own that this takes time; and so it should.  Again, not worrying about it and just letting it pan out the way it does, or would.  Still shocked to the core that not worrying is the best way to go.  It even seems to get things to work faster; it’s almost like the first shot works; that’s one hell of a short cut.  I guess being in flow rly gets the job done.

I’ve rly just gots to take care of myself while I am on less pills; the most important thing being to not worry or judge.  It sounds crazy, tho those are literally the things that w make the difference of me making it out of this or not, I feel.  Yea, two thousand old commandments.  They have more power than the big bang.

So, rly self care, self care, self care; for now; and always rly.

I wanna keep things low key.  I like being low key and Ima stay low key; it’s funny bc it’s the only decent thing that I have to hold onto.  Em said that the stages of trying to make it, the hunt, w better than having it.  I hear ya.

Nobody needs to k, real talk.

To Lowkey

K