Hey

It’s twelve thirty pm, I’ve had coke.

I liked being out.  It seems like a nice world out there.

I w challenged w the way I felt about people, over the last twelve hours.  I went back up to 2mg.

W the business, I have a main image for the page, and the general text for the three columns; I kinda had an image idea for the last image.  Idk whether to go w them

I’ve just taken the last 1mg of the day.

Feeling the way I have, over the last twelve hours, has made me feel more in tune w people; Idk how; so it has been worth it.  I’ve wanted to feel this way for so long.

People have been more friendly w me over the last couple days, and this was a huge challenge.  I guess it’s kinda plateaued, and I’m used to it now.

It’s a lot like therapy, and that’s probably why it has done me good.  I suppose Ima ask for more, and there w be more, for as long as I want it.

It’s the next step up after doing groups.  Idk why it’s so powerful.

I want the business to make money.  I suppose it c be a challenge and may fail.  I want to try tho.  I feel that people got me in that scenario.

So it’s back to life as it w.  It feels good to have my sanity back.  It’s rly alls I need.

I need to reset and then move forward; like I say, never worrying about the business, and getting back into not thinking, as this rly is who I am.

I suppose it stems from chronic thinking about nothing, since I w a kid.  The emptiness kinda feels the same; there are still no meaningful thoughts.

I’ve decided to lose the energy drinks.  I want some coke.

Not judging when I feel hurt, at what someone has said, and recovering; back to a reality where Ik that people are nice; most of them.  I suppose when someone has taken something the wrong way, they can be a bit nasty, I feel.

Idk where I have been for the last some years, tho I feel I’m rising out of it.  Theoretically this means that I should handle w people say, and be able to deal coming off the pills.  All in good time.

This has taken over wanting the business to work.  I just wanna feel that people are okay.  I guess that’s what utopian energy is; just feeling good about the people and the world I’m in.

Ik that my head has gotten smaller.  I feel that’s bc of all the judging and worrying and all that neural real estate to create those thoughts.

While I w on 1mg, I rly felt that I w in kid reality; just for a moment.  I’ve done well to be on the dosage I’m on.  I’ve had two reductions.

This change w take time to adjust to.  I guess it w be a long road.  Maybe people talk to me bc I spend so much time alone.

I’ve noticed that peoples’ opinions don’t matter.  They vary so much that they have no weight.  This is comforting when I hear something and feel compelled to accept it.

To Feeling People Are Okay

K