It’s two pm, I’m having coffee soon.
Idek what to say. I just believe. I feel that I am getting younger.
I have to make sure that this continues. It’s not something that Ima worry about. It kinda seems like good news. I just feel that Ima keep following J’s commandments, and it w lead to life.
I mustn’t judge tho; whether w people are saying is, against me or not. The point tho is that things w be clear when I get there.
I think of it, in terms of the hedgehog pathway; that it is opening up; little by little.
I look in the mirror and I already look younger. I kinda imagine where I w be like had a just lived, and it’s just not pretty.
They are like two extremes; extremely young, and extremely old.
In Other News
Still working on the business. Making my way through the last page, dreaming of having my income.
Like I say, I have done well w the ad; and this gives me confidence w w I am doing; just that I like it.
Ik that Ima not focus on two things. It has to be not getting older. Anything else as a big goal, w just get in the way.
So I just hold, that I am where I want to be and that is enough. Just live every day and.. Idk. Carrying on the way I’m doing, going to clubs and going walking and enjoying ASMR; and just own that w I w is going on in the background and things are the way I want them.
The Unknown
Option A, to fear it; that it is dangerous. Option B, to be indifferent, not bothered by it. There is no way of knowing w quality it has. I just w faith hold that things w be okay.
It’s just that so much is making sense. Why w it all be coming together like this. That’s w makes me believe.
And
I think that when I came off my medication; it just made things happen before I w ready; like people just being open, w w they were saying and Idk what they are saying, tho they did it much sooner.
Now it seems to be happening when I am able to handle it a little more. There is no fear that things won’t happen as long as I’m on it. Things are playing out just the same.
I see it through the lens of psychological adjustment. It is happening and not being forced.
I realised finally that rushing to come off the medication, w only gonna make me feel unsafe.
I think that hope is the word I’m thinking of.
To Hope
K
Miss K 