Hey

It’s eight thirty pm, I have my coffee

I’m aware that I mustn’t check on the business, until it has run for a while.  It’s okay to check on my ads tho, to see how they are doing.

I w thinking about judgement.  I just wanted to be a kid, and for it to not be in my reality, like so Idek w judgement w.

I w walking past where I used to live when I w very young, and I felt the vibes and wanted to just be stuck in them; like judgement w pull me out; thinking, is it right to have some kinda awareness of w people are like, do they deserve for me to look down on them.  Is it right for me to k, then thought I’d rather just have this reality and not worry about it.

It w like a tradeoff, this for losing that.

I had originally thought that, through not judging, it w mean that I w able to judge people more fully, tho this moment told me that I w lose that altogether.

It kinda feels like it did when I w at Uni; w people saying all kinds of stuff from outside of my window.

I then got home and remembered the commandment of love thy neighbour as thyself.  This prevented me from judging whether living here, w doing me any  harm and that to be healthier did I need to move out.

I’m aware that all people are evil, and that wherever I went there w be people just saying evil sh; and doing evil sh.  I noticed this from wherever I w, people w say evil things, I feel, or felt.  C it rly be that all people be the same.

It’s right to get out of abusive situations.  For example if people are users, it’s alright to stay away from them, I feel.

This made me change the way that I walked home.  I felt unsafe.  I also thought about how kids should not talk to strangers and w a good idea this ethos w; for me.

I’ve just been aware lately of how, even body movements off of using people be a lure and be an attempt to mark someone, to mark me.  The lure comes before the attempt to ask, I feel.

I feel it’s the same w extremely toxic people, that their body language is full of the wrong vibes, like I feel offended by it and upset when someone has that type of body language towards me, that it feels of entitlement or something, towards me.

I tend to feel upset when around jerks or posers.  I just choose to stay away and won’t sit next to them.  I feel there are so many in this town that it’s genuinely a rl challenge to stay away from them.

I thought, w I be better off moving, so that I c get away from all the jerks and posers; I c be happier then.  Then I thought about how living here just allows me to run the business so well and that it c be a double edged sword.

One thing that stops me from moving is that I feel that these are my people, and that if I move I w just end up rly f up.  It stops me from wanting to move to somewhere where people have a lot of money.

I must keep the kinda people that I have around me rn.  That included those who I live around, for better or worse.

I must never think to myself how evil people are, tho remember that all people are the same.  I feel that my poor human mind can’t hold the evil of people w|o judging them as being inferior.

To The People Around Me

K