Author: womankirsty
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It’s two am and I have my coffee I had a nightmare that I w @ the fairground and I got caught in one of the rides. The hallucinations I w having have settled down. Normally when I have a relapse, I feel that people are up to something that is rly pi me off, and…
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I’m down Ferry Meadows. It’s wet, and I haven’t brought my bag to sit on, so I’m standing up. Ima have some CBD I’m still trying not to judge. It’s not that hard now. I stopped my morning judgies, and I only get it like every now and then. I just think about something else. I’m a little apprehensive to…
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It’s three thirty am, I have my coffee I signed up for the Christmas meal, w the knit and natter. It w be nice to see them twice that week. I buy my tree, hopefully, in a few days. It’ll be nice to have another one, as mine is looking almost dead. I must not overwater it this year…
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I’m at home, going w|o CBD. I’m still being careful, bc of my schizophrenic day; kinda, I had coffee today, at knit and natter; and the strange thing w w that, it didn’t make my self esteem collapse into itself, and it w the first time that that had happened. I feel rejuvenated. I watched dollblush,…
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It’s midnight, and I have my coffee Self esteem Self esteem is w enables someone, to run a business. It allows the mind to function better. It allows the person, eventually to be in the flow state. In the flow state, there is no stopping them, anything is possible. I found my way to self esteem, w J’s…
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I’m at home, passing on the CBD today. G, I freaked out on Sat; bad. I’ve spoken to support tho. He says, well I guess we think that it w psychological dependence. I’m okay atm, I w okay yesterday. Ima just put it behind me. Like I say tho, I’m a bit scared to have CBD. Bowling w great,…
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It’s one am, I have my coffee I’m scared I’ll have the same hallucinations at bowling, that I had at pétanque, tho Ima not think about it. Didn’t get time to eat as well, so must do that. Now I understand, why psychiatrists don’t let people come off the medication. The thing is tho, is that I…
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I’m hallucinating. They are quite small hallucinations, and I’m not in pain. I did feel a lot of shame tho, bc of w I heard people saying. I don’t think it w real, tho it w rly sad and I had a cry. My schizophrenia is fading in and out, as is my mood. I suppose Ima just take…
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It’s midnight, I have my coffee I am trying to avoid the midnight wudgies. It’s about my mental health. I mustn’t worry about whether w happened today w real. Tbh, it’s such a relief. At least I have stopped hearing evil speech from everyone. I’m dreading sorting out Insta, I’ve had nothing but problems w that. I can’t remember the…
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I’ve had a wild ride, the last couple of days, w psychosis. It’s w terrifying; feeling like everyone w evil, and wanted to kill me. I kept it together, by just not judging them, like this is how evil they are, and that’s okay. I felt I w getting threats, everywhere I went. I even left my pétanque…
Miss K 