Author: womankirsty

I get this agony thing when I’m going to sleep sometimes.  I have to stop and do something that wakes me up, like eat.  It happened three times tonight. I’m thinking maybe I should have coke zero instead as it w mean that I’m not stuffing myself; and it takes a long time to drink so would…

The guys came, tho they didn’t take away my washing machine.  They said that there w no way to secure it in the van. So I ordered a bulky waste collection.  My flat is gonna be a lot tidier w all the things gone. My mood w a bit low; after them not taking the machine; tho…

I’m excited about getting my washing machine today.  The guy rang me tho I didn’t answer it bc I don’t answer the phone if Idk who it is.  I then rang back and he told me when he is coming. It kinda has me unsettled bc I got scared that it w a scammer; I rang him…

I just had my visit from the girl from my housing association.  She is helping me to tidy up my place. She commended me on doing rly well and doing all the tidying homework that she had set me. I remembered how heavy it felt when I w not coping.  Another girl from the place w round;…

I ordered a washing machine.  It coming on Wed. I had a weird day. This girl in the toilets said, disgusting, he shouldn’t be in here. It got me to thinking about the shame that I feel all the time.  Like it’s rly not right of me to think that I’m disgusting, bc I’m about as far…

I had bowling; it w fab. I don’t take for granted the people in my life.  I just show up and hope that they accept me, and they do.  My favourite is knit and natter.  I’m going tomorrow and I’m rly excited about it. I need to find another activity to do, bc the pétanque is not running…

I bought myself some Ginger.  I am  trying to stimulate my hedgehog pathway. I have bowling this morning w is nice.  I go in an hour early bc it’s half term.  I’m no good tho I just go to enjoy myself. I spoke to a girl at the Samaritans yesterday.  I felt like I w gonna die afterwards, this is…

I had an unpleasant experience yesterday, when I felt that someone w verbally abusive to me.  I still feel uncomfortable over it as my empathy is leaking cortisol into my mind. I am confused at J’s commandments over it.  I remember when people used to stare at me and I felt this ruined my day.  Had I have…

I’m a little triggered rn.  This woman w super rude to me down Ferry Meadows.  I said he scared me.  She said, oh for God’s sake, he’s only a little boy.  I said he nearly walked into my scooter and hurt himself. According to J’s commandments this is a rly good thing; if my self esteem is so intact…