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I’m scared the business w not work.  It’s not like I’m actually thinking that tho it is affecting my energy, and my positivity towards it. I suppose this is a long process and I’m in for the long haul. My self esteem goes up and down with this and it’s important that my self esteem is…

I feel my feelings coming back more and more. For the last week I have felt that my self esteem is tied up in the business, and that it failing w mean that I had no value.  This is not true. I am still heading towards health; and as my trip to the hospital taught me,…

I just told one of the Google experts where to go. It w obvious to me as someone w fully functioning empathy that his answer was total gaslighting; and emotional abuse. I can’t even begin to start where he went wrong; it w that glaringly obvious. I told him straight; I feel you are either…

Idk what to say; I’m changing every day; I feel different. I love the summer.  I wasn’t very well today tho I am feeling better now.  I’m starting to realise that everyone doesn’t hate me.  I guess that’s the shame talking, or lack of it. It’s hard to accept that I felt so bad about myself, completely worthless.  It…

I’ve kinda dialled back my expectations.  I think if I get one customer for every five thousand ads I w be okay.  I just wanna make a little bit of money; and up my savings a little bit, while working on the business; and then practice my craft and hopefully get good at it one day. I…

I got to thinking; all the like uncertainty and anger at Google; I w have felt all that regardless of whether the business makes money or not.  It’s just a thing that someone starting a business goes through and is totally normal. I kinda thought that these feelings meant that the business w fail.  I wasn’t expecting…

I kinda got angry at Google.  I don’t wanna say why, tho I feel narcissism is a theme that runs through that company. I feel frustrated bc my cost per click hasn’t gone down yet.  It hurts emotionally, the uncertainty that it will.  Ik it will tho bc I’ve run a campaign before. I feel like I’m being…

I’m back So I had pétanque this morning. I just wanna, wanted to, rip that offer down.  All of my being w saying, this aint gonna work. I had a revelation tho.  I’ve just stopped thinking.  I’m always analysing stuff, every thought wondering about things, worrying even.  I stopped.  I have found peace since I did that; and it’s helped…

I have run my first offer; the first one after the total disaster two years ago. The only thing is leaving it alone.  It’s like my Christmas tree.  I  thought it was be happier w a little more moisture bc they like it, tho it gave it root rot, and I think it’s died. I need to let…

I don’t like assistive touch.  Why can’t I just run a mouse w~o that stupid blob on my screen. On a lighter note; I have nearly got the business to a point where Ima run ads.  In fact I have nearly finished writing an ad.  Then I just have to delete the menu that’s on my landing page,…