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I had such a good experience at knit and natter.  I put it down to the CBD that I had the night before; and the sun w out.  Idk that I had the ability to feel that. This is especially amazing w the medication that I am on as it dulls feelings. I have cleaned out my…

It’s the dehumanisations in my mind; that is w is making me older.  Like I’m watching I Woke Up A Vampire; and I’m having this sh going on in my head; and it’s distracting me from w is going on in the film.  Like I’m losing presence. Like the human mind is not perfect; and it gets…

We can do it, we can do it, we can do it; my new mantra. Ik that Ima do the business.  I feel that I have w it takes. It w such a nice feeling.  I had it a few swigs into a can of Foster’s.  I kept meditating on the feeling all the way round Ferry Meadows.…

Had a beer yesterday; it w nice. I used to do it every day tho I didn’t enjoy it; bc I w addicted. I had a dream where I bought some cigarettes.  It w so much hassle, they wouldn’t give them to me; they messed me around so bad. It’s got me thinking about the whole…

I w thinking about love; how it’s rly two people getting too close, and then having their hearts broken when they inevitably leave; for the purposes of having hard sex.  So rly it’s more about sex than love. I had this dream where this guy had wired all the phones in a tower block to blow.  I…

I want to work.  I don’t want to have idle time on my hands non stop. I feel this is just me being tempted w another offer; I’ll explain. The hardest thing in business is to not get shiny object syndrome; and keep jumping from offer to offer and not settle on one. I feel that…

I had my occupational therapy appointment.  I freaked out.  I felt like she w trying to sexually manipulate me. I explained this to her, and left.  She is going to send me some stuff through the post, tho I won’t be attending anymore appointments. I watched the episode of Monster High where Laguna is hiding Senior Squeaky.  The vibe…

I went to bowling, it w super.  I put myself out there and it w the best ever. The mind is something that needs to be exercised.  The ability to cope in a group of people takes work. I am rly happy that my mind is starting to work in that way; sure as hell hasn’t all…

I’ve called myself trans one time, tho the truth is is that I am just female. I had an MRI and the doctor told me that I have a womb. I feel I am only male for one reason and that is that my brother used to attack me as soon as I w born.…