My head is f; f.
I have figured it out, it all out.
There is like the insaneist high percentage of peope w ASPD in this town. That or they, is what is drawing the, this society towards narcissism.
Yea, like I say, my head is totally f; and I feel amazing, validated in the extreme, and so happy for Idk; it’s just put the final piece of the puzzle into place.
It feels so good. I w never losing my mind; I just needed to feel and honour my feelings, bc I needed to k what they w telling me.
I don’t feel repressed anymore. I mean, maybe there w like gaslighting, Idk. Anyway, I am not blind anymore I rly do see all this.
Shocked af, reeling rly. And kudos to me for figuring it out.
I grew up w ASPD. My mother brother step dad and step brother all had it I feel. It is a miracle that I am still alive w the abuse I had to deal w, and never got away from.
My life went in another direction, when I got into spirituality, I just veered the f off away from them, there w no going back.
It’s gonna be hard, it’s always gonna be hard w the gaslighting I have to put up w. From time to time, Ima feel like they a bury me. Someone w feelings is, are, rly rejected in this town, as being plain nasty and worthless.
It is shameful to have feelings here, I feel. Only a disgusting being w have anything to say about such a wonderful place, right. God I feel like they hate me like f.
It’s hard, hard, as a lot of the sh rly shows a massive lack of empathy. Ima be real.
To be looked at like I’m evil for k ing what is going on. Made me squirm, like a worm. I w writhing I w. Yes, the torture it w, it w; absolutely, and still w be.
I’ve had a long ride. Idk whether I w ever be able to deal; Idec. This is beyond f up.
I still wanna get out, I just prefer people who have empathy. I need to feel like my feelings matter and not be gaslit for them. I need supportive people who validate my experience; that doesn’t happen here, far from it.
I wondered why wherever I got a job, w be people who w try to make me out to be crazy w every single word that I said. I felt like I had lost my f mind; for sure.
The cat’s out of the bag now.
Idc how f up I look, I rly c give a sh on steroids. Honestly the more they don’t get me the happier I am. This w my biggest problem. I needed them to get me; until Ik who they were, are. Now I’m super happy that they don’t and it doesn’t bother me.
That is why I say that this is f up; in the extreme.
I’m out
Kirsty
Miss K 