Hey

It’s three thirty pm, coffee’s in an hour

I’m having to keep my mouth tight shut, bc the window’s open.  I asked my neighbours to be quiet and they did.  I w challenged w being talked to all the time.

I feel my body is in full youth mode; like I’d need some time for it to catch up w me.  I’m being super strong, w means not judging or worrying.  I’m pretty sure of this from w two kids said, to me.  Tbh I never thought I’d get here so soon.

It’s like being at Uni, when everyone w just talking to me.  I feel challenged accepting people tho.

I feel like I’ve lost my mind; and at the same time, like the kid said.. Ima not say w the kid said, tho it eluded to me being in full control of my faculties.

It’s nice that Ima have my window open and just be free from any stress.  It feels good.  I’ve spoken to a couple of people today, and feel kinda satiated and ready for my club tomorrow.

When I w a kid; I never looked on older people and felt they w wac, like kids seem to be feeling, the ones that have spoken to me.

I guess this takes the shape of some kind of accelerated growth; that just is taking me off on some kinda tangent, holding on so tight for dear life; being super chill being the thing to get me through.

I feel that my immune system has ramped up.  I wondered if the talking to, I had yesterday w somehow slow things down, tho it seems to have done the opposite.

I need to improve; I do.  I need to deal.  All this information coming at me, I just.. I need to tune into it and not be disturbed by it, maybe.  Nah.. I just feel that it is the last lingering essence of the talking to I had that is sticking around.

Like it made some kinda dent in my aura that is letting all this in.

People keep doing this, periodically.  I feel it challenges me w mental illness.

I guess, no wonder kids grow up, they just don’t wanna be going through this.

To Staying Young

K