Hey

It’s three pm, I’ve had coffee

It hit me, I’m feeling everything I should be feeling, I’m off it.  The last batch must have been 1’s.  I liked realising this a lot; like I say, I c feel all my feelings; and it’s been so long.  Fourteen years in fact.

That aside, my symptoms just got to much better when I realised that.  It shut everything down.  Things got a little challenging on the way home, tho they petered out, and then shot up again when I got home.

It’s been a hard time morally, thinking w w I do in certain situations.  Rly my answer w to chill the f out and just be in the moment.

I want to follow her sh to the letter and do therapy.  I made a mistake w overriding her and lowering my medication; tho the fact I w so chilled I didn’t c, obs had it’s reason.

I w talking to a Samaritan.  He said that it w be best to lower it or raise it.  I had to agree, that middle dosage is a tough one.  Crafty rly, Idk how Ima look her in the eye.

I’m having Tempura veggies in a bit.

I w walking home.  I realised that I walked that w w I w little.  Nothing ever happened and it had to be a good area, although feeling sketch af.

I got some sweet and sour; in fact I must get some more.

I’m dealing better on the daily.  Getting closer to my goal of complete invisibility.

And the ability to handle any teen walking past me is dope.  This path is rly for me, there is no getting away from that.

I’m the first and wanna open this up for others.  It’s a mash w a challenge it a be tho, ill.

Kinda feeling my way as I make it out the woods, totally a sinner trying to escape my own actions.  Redemptionzies.

To Redemptionzies

K