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It w the new year like half an hour ago I gave up vegetarian food. I had been eating eggs for a while; and I guess my body must k what is good for me. This year w be good. I’m still wondering if this town is actually pathologically narcissistic. And if true happiness may…

I’m going through something rn. I feel like I’m being abused. I’m asking myself should I be following G’s commandments, are they good for me. I feel it may be the abuse of maybe being smothered as a baby; like there is some huge psychological damage in me… That is holding me back from healing…

My mom took her hand or the blanket and smothered it over my mouth, bc I c see that there w something w w her, I feel She held it there for long enough for me to k that I w lose my life unless I forgot that she w defective, and evil; I feel.…

Feel super feminine rn I w just laying on my sofa and resting my hand on my boobs; then this crazy feeling came over me It kinda enveloped my whole body and then my whole being. I’ve been talking about how I have been disengaging my frontal lobes; lately. I feel this is w has…

Christmas w a roaring success. I went to dinner at St Mary’s. It felt easily as good as dinners at home w my family when I w a kid. There w one girl, DJ Lucky. I wanted to k her for longer tho she lives Up North. She said maybe one day w w meet…

I don’t want to have sex The crux is that this vision thing is that everyone is delusional. It’s common knowledge that sex can cause psychosis. Sanity is something that is rly important to me. It just seems like a slippery slope into not being aware of my surroundings. That’s what bothers me, the lack…

I got told that that person who is being pushy to try to get to know me, is the one to be scared of. This helps so much. I need to be able to discern between someone who is safe and someone w is not; and now I can. Tho I must take them for…

I’m still struggling w feeling that people are threatening me. This makes me feel horrible; as they may feel hurt to k this is how I feel, super hurt actually. Tho I must feel it. The only way to getting to k that they are not doing this is to just allow the feelings in.…

So I stopped taking my anxiety medication. it w making me more anxious, the irony kills me. I need to find voluntary work. Ima try in the library. So the thing w the anxiety medication is that peoples’; behaviour w rip me open several times a day. No beuno. It means tho that I need…