I w gaslighting myself; that I had imagined that my cost per click had gone right back down to the proper price.
Like w choice do I have; but to just wait for it to happen. What am I even saying; Ima reasonably expect it to.
Idk why I lost it so much lately. I suppose that it w bc… I just checked on the progress of the ad campaign and it fershizzled my wiggle.
It’s a good job that I did tho; as it meant that my tutor showed me that I had not put the https in my link; so that w mean that the ads are going nowhere; w means no mullah.
Also he told me w to do if the price doesn’t go down and how to get it down.
Unfortunately I have to check on it again tomorrow; w means that it’s gonna fershizzle me again.
In Other News
I forgot to eat. This is rly good news; as it means that I am skinny, as it is skinny people who forget to eat.
My head is in a much better place as well. I put it down to tidying my place. It has given me hella self esteem; and also helped my mental illness.
G I w thinking that people are trash, yk; like just being scared of them; all bc my place w a dump and I suppose that I w just blaming it on everyone, the fact that I w all f up over it.
I wanted to go to London today tho I had to do my washing. I’m not going at the weekend bc I don’t like the train when it is packed. That means going on Wed next week.
Tbh I don’t need to. I w so f up over feeling that my business w in the dumper that I just needed to get somewhere where people are successful to kinda pull myself up.
I should totally go tho. It w show me that there are like millions of successful people out there; and that to make it is actually quite easy. That’s what I need; to feel that it’s not that hard
I had my appointment w the girl from my housing association. She told me that I w doing super well at tidying up the place w w so nice. She also… It felt like she w giving me my home back.
She w saying we could tidy this place over here, or over here, or over here; and it felt like she was offering these areas of my home back to me. I got a little emotional.
It’s like when people are at rock bottom; it just feels like there is no hope. I shared that w her. Tidying up just feels impossible when there is a total mess.
I even felt like this when I had done some areas and k that it totally was. Idk, there’s something about mess that’s totally toxic.
I feel that it caused my relapse, the total mess in the place. It w like a hundo times worse than this. I couldn’t move for sh everywhere. I started to panic, what if I lost my keys and couldn’t go out. Then this actually happened and that w w I lost it.
What do ya know, sh happens.
I had a package that it said had been left; tho it hadn’t. I’m going to the post office to see if it’s there. It’s my CBD dooby. I hope to have a blast on it tomorrow.
I had a beer today; boy I needed it. That means that tomorrow I got CBD as it doesn’t make me feel good to have three beers at the weekend.
I need to find some stuff to get up to at the weekend. The Pétanque is not available; also something to do on Thursday.
I want to do things down at the village hall, as this is the place that has the best vibe. I love it there so much.
I have tidying up to do so hopefully the business won’t wig me to pieces like this week. I just didn’t get anything done even tho I meant to. It w unpleasant af.
Anyway; regardless of whether I send ads to a landing page or whether I send them direct to the merchant; I have cheap af ads so there is a high probability of the business making some money.
Also there’s the chance of me getting all my ad money back by declaring it as expenses; and then just running them all again the next month and repeating it the whole while every month. Add to this the profits that I get on top and recycling it all back into the ads; it looks like Ima be able to scale the business quite nicely.
Also; if I do it the way that I w shown; the way to lower my cost per click; I w be able to make five figures a month w w do quite nicely.
Life Is Good
I’m Out
Kirsty
Miss K 