It’s like four thirty am, I have my coffee.
I asked the Google Ads lady, c she please stop contacting me. I.. thought about people I feel are toxic. I thought how the only way, I feel, to level up is to get rid of them out of my life, and then the respectful people w come in.
Ik that, J says, work it out w your adversary while you are still on the way, lest they hand you over to the governor etc, tho something inside told me that Idc.
It’s also relevant to say that, J says, merchants and buyers do not enter the kingdom of heaven. I realised this after.
Heaven, rly is my one and only focus. I don’t have time for anything else. It gives me that feeling of self esteem that no business c give me. No amount of money w match this feeling
I can’t help it. I’m on this path, and it’s so addictive that I just feel drawn to carry on down it. It has made me who I am, levelled me up so much that I don’t even recognise myself. Idek what this reality is that I’m in, it feels so alien to me.
Maybe I w judging her. Maybe I w labelling her a bully, Idk.
Tbh, the whole sex thing just seems way more important than any of this. This feeling that I have to flirt w people when I don’t want anything to happen over it. It’s so confusing. It’s just my faith that is carrying me through.
Rly I’m focussed at where I am in my journey rn; that I have to just not avoid anyone, at all. I have to just let them upset me; w is okay, it’s far better an option that going on a anger trip, that may take me to mental illness ville.
The elephant in the room, is that I can’t use Google Ads w|o talking to dedicated support. Just putting that out there. I have more important things to focus on, like I say.
I guess my faith is pretty strong. Like Ik that Ima walk into many jobs. My ability to be humble and just do what I’m asked is paramount. Like that is the thing that someone w be getting wrong w it. If they don’t just do their sh’ to the letter, they are not the best employee, and that costs the company money. It also sends sh’ uphill, w is never a good thing.
It also begs the question, why merchants and buyers don’t get into heaven. C it be bc they have compromised their integrity. Like the number one skill to learn to make it is learning to sell. This involves just not caring whether it is right for the customer. Idk.
Some people care about money and possessions more than anything. This confused me. I w like, w is w w that. The part of me, deep inside k that is w the truth. I’m just trying to figure things out. Idk who I am and I’m kinda.. it’s like feeling my way in the dark. I can’t see where I’m going, I’m just taking it one step at a time. There’s this feeling of uncertainty, tho a feeling of faith that everything w be okay.
I just feel so vulnerable. I feel that G w keep me safe tho. I feel that’s why people go after money and power; bc they feel that that w keep them safe, that no one w be able to mess w them, and take advantage of them and so on and so on. They w be at the top of the social tree, and w be in charge of life, not influenced by it.
I guess it w be the complete opposite of not knowing w w happen next and just hoping that they are safe; or is it.
I feel scared.
I always felt that Google w a company that I w never work for in a million years. Tho I w w I?
This is like when I play croquet. I feel that I’ve made a totally irrational shot, wondering w the hell I w doing; and then out of nowhere it turns out to be putting my ball in exactly the right position, and then I get the hoop.
To me, it’s all about staying chill. Like, staying chill and having faith that things w just go my way, is the number one way that I win at that game. I feel it works for life too.
Tbh I feel I’m down a few points and need to just chill the f my way to beating them. Happens all the time, in fact I feel it’s the number one way I win.
First and foremost, tho, it’s not avoiding people I feel wanna f me. That’s my focus and the most important thing happening in my life rn.
To Winning
K
Miss K 