It’s one thirty am, I have my coffee
My hedgehog pathway is jammed wide open, I feel it. Whether it’s open enough for my Yamanaka genes to be activated, Idk. Hopefully it w continue to open, leading to that
It means that my body might start repairing itself. I may see changes in my hair and skin.
Tbh I have already seen those; I have very little gray now, and my face looks stupendous.
I have my interview tomorrow. Idk how else Ima do it, than just pull up on them like that. It’s out of my head now. There must be no thoughts about it, nada, that is my superpower and w definitely give me an edge.
The campaign is there, just begging to be run; tho I must collate all my ideas on it, by going back and copying up everything I’ve said; or just say the three things I wanna say, in the moment.
AI is just computers. The old ones used to be programmed w words like if, then, let, run, etc; now they are programmed w the whole english language; that’s all AI is.
I remember thinking as a kid, looking at these words on the front of my Spectrum 48K, that they could be the words of our language, wondering what that w be like, now I get to find out.
I remember looking through the catalogue, looking at the furniture, planning what my home w look like, something I’m looking forward to now. It seems I get to live my life, after all.
Am I in kid reality, it’s a gray area. I’d put myself at about twenty five years old.
It’s kinda hard to feel that life w let me do this. W people accept someone who has aged backwards like this, w they feel resentful towards me.
Yea, I say aged backwards; I feel that that has happened. I feel that a lot of genes that repair the body are already working for me, and have been for a while. I just look in the mirror and it’s pretty obs.
I don’t feel I’m doing this out of some grandiose coup de gras, where I just have something over everyone. I’m just a kid, wanting to stay a kid, pleading w the adults not to make me old, hoping that they allow me this.
That’s w J’s commandments are essentially for. They allow kids to not rub adults up the wrong way. I feel that it is the conflict during the teens that robs kids of this. They feel powerful enough to tell their parents that they have lost it, I feel; tho, in that statement, in that moment, they are judging them, and that is the door that they walk through, into that reality, I feel; w|o even knowing it, w|o even knowing what they have done. Insipid adulthood has found a way into their hearts, I feel.
Conflict requires two people to have a problem w each other. Any bigotry falls into this group, w the person insisting that the other demographic is the problem, w them themselves being as bigoted as the other, pure hypocrisy, and hard to watch.
I see it as Fersha, the destroying angel, and once in, it is nie on impossible to get out. She feeds on those who dare to go near to her, I feel, sucking them in and like sticky tendrils that won’t let them go, the danger just being ignorance of her existence.
I saw her one day, I had a vision, of this entity, unfortunately, she got me too. I fight my way out every day, that’s w I’m doing w J’s commandments. It has taken me six years to loosen her grasp.
Ik that it is the same world that I w born into, the one that felt amazing. I long to feel it; w|i, that bliss, that ecstasy of youth. Like the ultimate vibe, peace; seeing the world as a little like dank, is my reality. I need to wash this dankness off of me, I am unclean. To see the world this way is a sin I feel. I feel that I sin against all kids, by feeling this way.
In Other News
Haters: haters are people who have been sorely told off by people. I had to deal w w felt like hate. I feel this person w very sick, in fact this girl said, pi off, you’re insane. The fact that I said nothing, w is just my personal vibe, means that next time she sees me, she may just leave me alone.
She lost her energy when she said evil things to me, and said that she felt that I had the power to do that. I saw her self esteem destroyed, I feel, only keeping it going by narcissistic supply.
To Avoiding Fersha
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