Hey

It’s two pm.  Coffee is conspicuous by its absence.

I just couldn’t do it, make one.

I feel that I am becoming more stable.  Idk what happened, I guess I’m on placebo, so when I took less I rly was taking less.  It’s working out alright tho, Ima finally tell myself that; and it works even tho Ik.

Ima become more open, like to w people are saying around me.  Idk if I like it; I do rly, tho, it’s happening.  There’s no way of realising my goal of understanding and vibing w younger people, unless Ima deal w w they say, to me.

Valuing them more and more.  I took a sabbatical, I’m back.

I deal, do I; w they say is a lot.  I had no idea the sheer amount of life that I had in me.  Why did no one tell me this, that.

I’m challenged w feeling people are all talking to me at the same time.  Idk if it is real.  Hallucinations are a rl thing.  Maybe it’s reality maxing and it overclocks my processor, yea, Ima go w that.

I remember thinking, I want this to happen again.  That’s f nuts.  I have never meant it so much; tho tbh my reality is pretty fine tho Ik it w happen and take me deeper.  Kinda scary, Idk why.

Like it’s not taking me deeper into like pain, it’s taking me out of pain, bears remembering.

Ima have a coffee

I change my mind

The thought that every time that someone sbizzled my gizzle, they did me a favour, is a lot.  Yk what; Ima file that one under human don’t have the capacity to understand this.

I’m sane, honest gov’, I don’t want that to happen again.

Rly looking forward to coffee in three hours.

Ima wonder if my business should take some kinda new direction; hell no.  Ima just take the inspiration where I find it and do it in the moment.

It’s always the way I guess, that, when I’m about to get profitable another business model comes along that looks tastier, and the closer I get to my profit, the tastier they look; and their getting pretty tasty so Ima stay w it.

And there the old thing of.. if I manage to make this offer work, concentrating solely on it, then Ima make any offer work, and that’s just fire in the long run.

See, it’s all well and good firing this puppy up and supporting myself; tho when that has happened there’s this need to carry on doing it, and that’s super important.  Better get this right, right out the get.

Ik, I’ll be some kinda fancy shmansy Affiliate Marketing expert, zheesh.

In Other News

I got salad today; kinda struggling to get the veggies in.  I’ve also got some balti that I’ve put in containers for just throwing over veg to thicken it up.

Rly been appreciating YouTube and Twitch, lately.  Feel so grateful that I have these to keep me like, erm, like give me something to do.  Shoutout to all the Tubers and Twitchers.  Your content means so much to me, as do you.

To YouTube and Twitch

K