Hey

It’s one pm, I’m just making coffee

I w not judging.  W people were saying w a challenge.

The whole day I w listening to it.  It felt like they were not talking about me; w felt good.  I cried on the bus, bc I felt I w only k what they were saying for one day, then I w lose the reality of it and just kinda not notice it anymore.

Some people were super nice to me.  Quite a few people actually.

So that’s the next stage then, to just let go of the reality of what they are saying.  Then I w like my reality more.  That’s where I want to be, that’s my main goal now.

And I’ve let go of the need to k every word of w they say.  It just doesn’t matter.

I’m crying again, bc Ima not be like them.

I must not judge them; allowing me to leave this, that reality.  It’s working okay so far.  It is the best option for not feeling bad over the things they have said, when it’s becomes hard to deal w.  And the things they do, the nice things; I have to let them stand, to keep them going by not judging anyone for anything.

In Other News

ProjectBRAiNROT, is on again today; about four pm.

And I’ve AI’d some stuff around my landing page; looking at the ones that shouldn’t work tho do.  That’s how I feel I w do it, by having a page that shouldn’t rly work tho works rly well.  It told me that’s the fastest way to level up.

I’m leaning towards not studying anyone who does it this way, just asking AI stuff, tho having a little look.  I feel that’s all it w take.

My most immediate goal is to come off the medication, feeling that I w be on nada, when I.. what I feel w be my next placebo pills.

Lit

My metrics are now working.  I looked.  This happened after my cookie banner went live.  Just reeling at how easy it is.  It’s funny how Idk till Ik.

I’ve drunk my coffee

Hmm

Those energy drinks are so chongy.  I feel similar to when I’ve had a pint, Idk what’s in them.  Kinda makes sense how I need approval at the checkout.

Lunch is up soon, and I’m having some of those Mandarins.  Then I w have a rest; maybe sleep and do stuff later.  Kinda got up at midnight, then back at three and up at six.

Just like finally feeling like people are saying random stuff; that’s all it is.  I have worked hard to get to this point.  I feel it protects me from a relapse, w is greatly appreciated, keeps me safer.

Like I say, coming off the meds w probs be a challenge and Ima be careful around that time.

To Goals

K