Hey

It’s one pm, I’ve had Coke Zero

It felt like a weekend today.  It also felt like I w on holiday.  Plenty of visiting somewhere vibes.  The sun w out, and has been for a few days.

I feel astonished about where I have landed, being on J’s commandments for like six years.  There’s this motivation to just keep putting the effort in, like something huge depends on it.  Ima not think about it.

I feel less grandiose; like just being me is all that is required and no need for anything more than that.  I suppose it w take getting used to.

Tbh it’s welcome relief.  I never liked feeling like people were treating me differently.  I kinda felt like they weren’t, and then the grandiosity w gone.

I started on that AI page about studying unusual landing pages.  There’s this bloke, Harry Dry.  I watched one of his videos showing the thought process of arriving at a huge converting page.  It w okay an all, tho I just took away that..

I feel that Ima just not even care about whether Ima do it.  That’s all rly that I w looking for; and I don’t feel that I have to learn how to do it.  He kinda just runs w it, if it feels right.  He also said that it isn’t that hard to double the profit.

In Other News

I feel I am adjusting to being on less medication.  The things that people say, are just kinda fading out to like background, something.  That w the challenging part, just hearing all this crazy stuff.

ProjectBRAiNROT is on today.  Mustn’t miss her.  I just feel so blessed that Ima listen and enjoy.  I attribute that I can do this, to following J’s commandments for six years, no joke, so she feels special; as do some of the ASMR that I watch.

I feel moved.  It’s just so profound that I have changed so much.  I saw a thumbnail, for a movie; and it just felt like when I used to see that something w on, like thirty five years ago.  It hit me hard.  Just grateful that Ima feel the genuine energy of things and feel that there is so much more out there.  The world feels of more now, like I say, it’s profound.

That w my goal right down the line, to feel more, now I do.  I choose to not thank G as I don’t speak to her.  I guess Ima just, like I say, just carry on putting the effort in and just reap more of the same, get to the full goal of the full awareness that I used to have.  It’s a lot just realising w is going on here.  Again, just not gonna think about it.  Just feel this lightness to no longer feeling challenged as to whether Ima get there.  Again, it’s a lot.

So

Rly Ima just take the next batch of meds and deal.  I must keep watch over myself how well I am, and keep in contact w my team.  The getting used to what people say has helped and w help a lot.  I’ve never completely come off it before.

If this goes well, then I get my life back.  Ima not look back to my old self tho.  I am a new me now and w live a new life.  That w a challenge, just getting used to myself and how other people react to this new me.  I accept myself now, I want to be this person.

To Being Me

K