Hey

It’s one pm, I had Coke Zero Earlier

I challenged rn w zweebing.  My mind is trying to zweeb all sorts of things.

I definitely feel like I’m either a) on f all medication or b) on 1mg.  I’m erring towards like being on none.  I feel that the biggest challenge is being on a small dosage, and that doesn’t feel like it’s going on rn.

I’m calling it zweebing, reality fishing.  It’s wondering about my reality.  Asking myself questions about my reality just is something that I’m gonna stay away from hard.  Then there’s questions about people, do people deal this way or that way and trying to figure out how to deal, w the normal way of dealing is.  Then there’s just zweebing to try and sort of get into reality; the feeling that thinking about things can bring reality in.  I feel that it absolutely can’t.  Reality just is.

Identifying these different behaviours helps me a lot.  It allows me to name w I am trying not to do; then alls I have to do is name it and then not have the thought.

The business is pretty-much where I left it.  Ima not try and do anything until I have saved up a bit.  It’s kinda tantalising, not gonna lie, tho I must not let that tempt me.

I’m thinking about having my windows open.  I remember when I used to just have my TV off, bc I w challenged w it pretty much talking to me.  I realised that that probably is a bad idea bc it literally keeps me sane, I feel.  So I’m thinking that I mustn’t do the same thing w the windows, I must open them.  I get challenged w hearing w people are saying and probs hallucinating the f out of it.

Yes, all these things coming back to me that can be challenges coming down in dosage, w is totally relevant rn, I feel.

This has become very real I feel that I need to be careful rn.  Like I say tho, being totally off it, I feel, just feels like it w be one hundo easier to deal and just a little bit of time and things w settle down.

I just wanna mention again that I wonder if this medication is a chemical lobotomy.

So

There’s two offers that Ima possibly run w, should things work out.  This is good.  Keywords are a thing as well.  I already have a keyword that people click on super well.  I’ll have to try it and see if it works.  If it doesn’t I’ll have to use another, just shift the keyword and keep the landing page.  It w be less clicks so less money tho like I say, I w be wanting to run the other offer as well, possibly giving me enough income to live on.

Just feeling lucky that Ik how to write a super duper well performing ad.  I w watching this video by this affiliate marketer who w saying that the main thing is to have a good ad.

So, give it about a month and I should be able to do all the things I wanna do; starting w ordering the copy and then just testing things out.  I already have an ad paused and be able to just run like a nice little taster of whether it has anyone clicking through and buying.

I w thinking of a YouTuber. They may feel that they are doing good when they have fifty thousand subscribers.  W me tho, when do I tell myself when I am doing well, it’s kinda f.  I feel Ima say it rn.  It doesn’t require that I believe my own bull sh that things are gonna work this time, I feel so Ima on hundo go w that.

To Feeling Successful

K