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It’s two pm, I had coffee at class

Ima handle a lot more of the things people say.  I feel this is down to just not being on medication.  It’s a super dope thing.  Of course it’s also down to following J’s commandments.

I’m doing well at not zweebing; even when like someone has said something, I feel, and I’m not asking myself, yk, is this gonna leave me upset for a while.

Zweebing has become a rl theme.  It w be possible to zweeb around all kinda of situations that I guess in these zweebs, feel like they c cause danger, peril, whatever.

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I just wanna rest.  I feel that I need it so bad.  The business can wait, kinda, probably being doing it tonight, like research into competitors.  I’ve got an angle, w is w Gem said w a goldmine, the social proof added to going the extra mile w the products.  That is something that I need to look into, just read the AI again.

It’s like Ima write the page myself tho this maybe not what Ima do.  I guess I need to be cognisant of whether this angle is ripe.

That’s another thing w the competitors, I suppose it’s needed to k how far above and beyond my web shop is going.  This adds to the strength of that angle; like I say just assessing the weight of that goldmine statement.

I’ve written it and want to put it above my bed for motivation.

I’m hearing so much stuff people be saying and wonder if it w just stop.  I honestly believe it w.  I’m learning so much about what people believe matters and it’s just stark that soon I won’t even like feel any of it matters.  It’s a mash.

That’s a kinda peace that Ima look for, that I am free to move about w|o hearing anything and the relaxation that may come from that.

It’s always been the same w everything that I felt w like.. when I w zweebing about something a hell of a lot, and like a couple of days later and it just seemed like it w nothing to worry about.

That’s w I’m saying that all this is just a passing phase, I feel.  Along w my attractiveness, w I feel soon people w just ignore or not even be aware of.

That’s why I feel things are reaching such a fever pitch, bc I feel they w break and then people w just feel nothing towards me, like some kinda grandiosity that just evaporates leaving nothing but being totally normal.

And yes, it normally takes just a couple of days for this to happen, I feel.

I mean, in the main, people don’t say anything to me anyway.  It’s when I’m challenged w w someone has said, it kinda, I feel, starts a chain reaction where people say more and more and more; like I say, in contrast to hearing nothing, it’s f.

Their words are just so much more easy to hear, and I feel like sounding so normal they w eventually feel like they are not even worth being said.

To Feeling Ignored

K