It’s two pm, I’m having coffee at six
I went to club today, enjoyed it. Did shopping on the way back, just held the energy of not judging. This kept my mental health good all the way home.
Forgot to get rolls so went to ALDI for them and got the beans that I didn’t wanna carry earlier.
Just so much more able to not judge people lately. It coincides w me deciding not to have evil thoughts. I feel like I may have a handle on things.
Wanna go to a new group tomorrow tho need to meet w the girl who helps me from my housing association.
Maybe Ima do it on Wed next week. Ima still not go to that club where I didn’t feel safe; tho I’ve found a coffee group that Ima maybe go to on Wed’s.
In Other News
Got to thinking about the business; that when done, Ima ask AI, to look for things that may make people bounce, that way getting mondo conversions. I’m actually scared rn that things may work out super well.
I w thinking about companies like Kelloggs. They have core products that they have been running for decades and it makes me wonder how long Ima get income from what I’m doing when or if it works.
Also
I hope Rin is on today. I missed her yesterday. Aryssa also wasn’t on.
And
There are other signs of rejuvenation in me, tho they are inappropriate to mention here.
At this point, rly realising that not judging and worrying is the absolute key to, literally being and feeling sane; the knowledge that it is these things that take me out of reality, is huge and just validates J’s commandments.
Sanity is something that I want. I remember feeling so so sane when I w like twelve, even like seventeen. I feel I w like the peace that that w bring, and am looking forward to it; for when worry and judging are gone, I feel I must be in reality all the time then, bc of there being nothing that a take me out of it.
I may be like one of the Mermaize Mermaids. She says that she feels good all the time. Kinda wondered at the time whether that c be true.
That w initially the thing that I felt about Doll; that she reminded me hardcore of Mermaize Mermaids.
Rin mentioned Monster High and I felt like taking another look. I feel I had it on when I w having a relapse and it kinda put me off. That happens from time to time that I drop things bc of nothing more than my mental health; and sometimes never go back to them; like Tumblr
To Sticking W Stuff
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Miss K 